when push comes to shove

i need to get my mojo back asap. ever since me and the housemates embarked on this cupcake baking frenzy, theres been a fresh supply of cupcakes all day EVERY day and this. needs. to. stop.

coz pictures dont lie. i wast looking thru my iphotos and my face looks bulat-er than last month. the scales have been creeping up but i usually ignore them since i fluctuate a bit but PICTURES NEVER LIE!

*sob* time to get out the special k and back to regular sleeping patterns and morning exercises and all that jazz!! this is seriously freakin' me out. i mean, one whole year of hard work can be easily thrown away with cupcakes and late nights!!!

arrrgh. i need to chill. my nikeids just arrived ystrdy so i shud start jogging out more. the weather's been pretty warm lately too, tho sometimes the sun's a bit shy to come out and its depressing to jog when the sun's not out, even if it is warm.

i just need to wake up early. ugh.

i need to go back to basics, like how i did last year. time for daily morning yoga sessions till i sweat like crazy, plus the weights im doing and (at least!) jog thrice weekly.

skali i need to fit in my reading and essay work lagi!

i mean, this was how it started last year. i saw a picture of me fat and im just like 'hell no i aint gonna stay lookin' like that!' but this time mcm antah.. tis very depressing.

i need rose. i need fz.

sigh. and it hasnt even been one year that i've keep my ideal weight. having illah as a housemate also doesnt help coz she cooks such yummy food! i thought nis was good last year but mang, illah can cook.

huhu okay, sukati aku ah blame org. shapa suruh mkn banyak? i need to get a hold of this mumbojumbo and have some will power. this means no more cupcakes and being a loser.

(coz i call anybody who sleeps early a loser. but at this point i need to be.)

i'll give myself a week and see how i cope. egawds. wish me loadsa luck. ya think i dont need it coz i've done this before? nu-uh. i need it more. u knw how druggies have relapses? yea this is mine. i had a relapse of food addiction. and too much indulging in my sweet tooth.

i even made my grad baju oredi and i had it done when i was at my smallest. who knws what i'd do if i cant fit into it. errks.

okay, a little less conversation, a little more action!

much love,
be'ah xoxo

Selamat Hari Kebangsaan

we decided to celebrate national day through our love of cupcakes.



we had fun doing them. its the least we could do, anyway. more pix on facebook of course.

much love,
be'ah xoxo

oh afeefaaaaa~

Rule 1: Whoever gets tagged has to write 10 things about the person who tagged him/her.

1. makes the best nasi ayam (excluding my mum) and buttermilk chicken!

2. calls me rabeah, which i like =D

3. was my shopping partner before she decided to balik barunai. (baik sudah nie ya nada, save jua duit :p)

4. one of the nicest and genuine friends i have. (jgn kambang, but its true!)

5. has tiny feet =p

6. loves to wear funky colours and patterns yg menjolok mata hahaha

7. but pulls it off anyway.

8. our parents are friends from wayyy back, which is coolbeans because i get none of the 'anak siapa dgn mu bejalan anie?' etc etc.

9. has a writing flair that she does not realise (siuk kali ah baca blog nya!)

10. has a gold sequined RTB-esque dress that i am DYING to try on just for the sake of it.

Rule 2: the person who gets tagged has to write 10 things about him/herself.

1. am currently taking a break from essay-writing

2. i've never utilised reading week so thoroughly. mcm bukan reading week rasanya =(

3. i've baked and ate seven types of cupcakes within the last week.

4. therefore i need my nikeids to come asap

5. religiously been drinking fresh smoothies for breakfast, ever since my pro smoothie maker arrived.

6. loves the charity pot body lotion from lush. it literally is LUSH! sedaap sekali! highly recommended.

7. am running out of things to say. all i can think of now is my unfinished law essay. haish. so much for taking a break.

8. this fact is very much said over and over again in this blog, but i'm going to say it again. i am an exercise addict.

9. it worries me how im going to juggle work and exercise when i get a job nanti. but then, i shud besyukur when i do get a job, what with sucky economic times.

10. dream job is to work in a gym. hahahaha that'll solve my no.9 dilemma! but banarr. i wanna work for a gym. maybe i should open one up lol.

not much of a juicy post, ey? i'll have a proper update once i finish this one essay, which is due on monday. in the meantime.. pray for my sanity while writing this essay! all this legal mumbo jumbo is making me crazy. i keep bursting into song and dance at random moments.

banar. tanya tah my housemates. but then, we do it all the time so i guess its nothing new. hahaha.

much love,
be'ah xoxo

cupcake frenzy

last saturday illah came home with a recipe book on cupcakes she picked up from town. she said 'she felt like baking'.

that night we made maple and pecan cupcakes.

then sunday ngiht we made meringue cupcakes.

then lastnite, we made lemon meringue cupcakes and peanut butter cupcakes.

needless to say i've been stuffing my face with cupcakes. the lemon meringue was heavenly, the peanut butter icing was deelish. it was a homage to cit's. its the closest i can get to eating her cupcakes.

i applaud cits' for not eating the cupcakes she bakes everyday. at this moment, ada tinggal one lemon meringue and peanut butter cupcake and whenever i go to the kitchen, the seem to be saying to me 'eat meeeeee!'

so yea. im staying in my room.

but i wanna bake more cupcakes tonight plg. how thisss??

even writing this post up is making me salivate over the two cupcakes. oowwwh mang where is my sense of will pow-waaaa?

at least i didnt eat the whole dozen =D the boyfriend's off to perth, which leaves me alone thinking of cupcakes in my room. oh wait, i have 2 essays to do.

u knw wats annoying? when u want to borrow books from the library but every frickin' copy is unavailable until after the essay due date.

that iklan didnt reli help. im still thinking of cupcakes. and now i miss my boyfriend.

much love,
self-confessed cupcake addict

update:
we made more cupcakes tonight! this time we made vanilla buttercream and chocolate and cheese ones. theres goes the diet!!

all pink

i havent officially registered, but i've officially made up my mind.

this summer i'll be running (or jogging more like) for the race for life event sometime in june.

i'll let u guys know when i need sponsors :p

in the meantime, cant wait for my shoes to come so i can finally start training! i think i've lost my running pace, what with just pumping iron or yoga. ive been leaving my cardio dependent on the walks to town and uni.

as long as the weather improves.. i should be out and about soon enough =D

caaant wait! if any of u are interested, go to the official site at raceforlife.org. should be a fun event. plus, we all get to wear pink =p which is a bonus in itself methinks hehe.

much love,
be'ah xoxo

surrender

i blame the cold weather; making me eat everything and (almost) anything i see.

and the things i usually see around are chocolate, jellybeans, chocolate, keropok, chocolate and more chocolate.

so i surrender. i am embarking on a fad diet (altho modifying slightly for myself.)

i'm going low-carb.

not totally cutting off carbs per se, but definitely eating less of it. gives me more room for chocolate anyway =p

last time i went low-carb, i could only last for a week and was cranky all the time.

oooh, i am having sushi tomoro tho =D its our monthly housemates dinner out. also catching the benjamin button movie before dinner.

next week is reading week. i'd usually be happy, but this time i have 2 essays due so it just means being cooped up in my room reading the thick law books for research.

such is the life of a uni student, ey?

cant wait for sushi tomoro. sushi reminds me of good old lunch/dinner dates with the boyfriend over summer. had sushi almost everyday sampai he was so sick of it he stopped asking me where i wanted to eat lol.

gawd i miss him.

anyway, wish me luck with the two essays and the low-carb diet. lets see how long i last.

much love,
be'ah xoxo

bramichael idol

last night was a night of unprecedented fun =D

no, we didnt go to the society's chinese new year party =p

we hosted a slumber party!! girls of st micheals place with the bramshaw babes had a girly slumber party which was uber fun and super-awesome!

(daym.. lama sudah nda pakai super-awesome lol)

it all started innocently enough but u know how things during weekends can get out of hand? so yea. it started as a dinner party at bramshaw.. illah cooked her yummy tomato rissoto and the bramshaw girls made cake and some deliciously sinful muffins.. but then we moved back to st michaels' because we wanted to catch american idol (which bramshaw dont get because durang nda cool =p).

so back we went and watched hollywood week. then somehow in the midst of the singing and the crying and the drama (on tv, not us), someone suggested we do our very own group idol thing. so we picked numbers at random and divided ourselves into 2 groups of 3, with two judges.

me and vuina ended up being the judges and we made winner! and loser crowns for the prize giving. team number one were anisah vivi and hanim, who did britney's baby one more time and PCD's dontcha. then team 2 were illah bee and zatee, who did stand by me and hero.

oh, everyone had dance choreography, costumes and make-up. everything done in under 2 hrs!

pacah kami semua ketawa watching each other's performances, the winner was team 1, purely because they didnt use cheat sheets. both team was awesome tho.. and cali berabis. we have it all on video but it will never be shown publicly because it contains scenes of the XXX nature =p

after the show, we basically pigged out on food. we had the muffins and the cake from bramshaw, i made caramel ice-blended coffee (kalah coffee bean rasanya yo! banaarr) and then we watched 'a walk to remember' while doing our eyebrows and painting each others' nails.

girly night indeed. all of us slept in the living room (sans nis bee and vuina) at 3.30am. woke up just before tghhari, showered and got dressed (and i sempat did weights lgi sementara tunggu jamban haha), made a strawberry smoothie for everyone and went out to rocco's for brunch.

i just got home and its abt 6.30pm now. we spent the rest of the days window shopping and trying on clothes - the usual girly stuff =) some of us got stuff tho, which i very much the jealous. but then, most of the things i want aren't reli things i need so whatevs. plus i just got nikeids which has set me waaayyy back financially.

i wish i can post up pictures plg. lastnight was HILARIOUS! definitely a story that i'll tell my kids.

enjoy the rest of the weekend everyone.

much love,
be'ah xoxo

fit february

in an attempt to lose the very very stubborn kilo that i gained over xmas, i've invested in a couple of essentials that hopefully will help me kickstart into a more productive weight-loss regime.

i've orderd a smoothie pro maker from kenwood, which arrived ystrdy. it was on 75% sale on amazon, so i cudnt resist! i'm currently enjoying very yummy smoothies made from fresh fruits! the smoothies are quite filling as well; i feel okay skipping a meal and just having a thick strawberry smoothie =D

actually, let me rephrase that. i'm not skipping a meal, its more substituting the meal with the very thick and yummy smoothie. never never EVER skip meals!

and lastly and much much more expensive but i believe worth the buy, i finally got myself a pair of nikeids!

obviously its gonna come in about 6 weeks, but with the current weather, 6 weeks sounds just about right for the sun to come out and to let little old me jog out. and why nikeids? because its gonna be in my favourite colours!

(p/s i've been using illah's shoes to jog all this while.. hee)

i cant wait for my shoes to arrive. lets just say they're gonna make atiq's sneakers look plain ;p

much love,
be'ah xoxo

the epic and magical snowfight

sunday night's snowfight was the best one i had since coming here, and its snowed thrice b4 this.

my housemates, zatee's house and rezzy's house all got together and played in the snow for about 3hrs.

but my housemates and i were 2 hrs out early, so we basically play for 5 hrs and we definitely burned off the calories from our takeaway pizza we had for dinner.

what made the night magical and epic, besides the fact that we played for 5hrs in the snow?

loads, but here are highlights of the night:

1) we *toyota-ed the bramshaw girls with snow when they opened the door, where it turned into an all out snow fight; the bramshaw girls coming out in pjs and house slippers (and hanim barefoot!) and zatee hitting a random man who just happened to cross our warzone.

2) throwing snow (that we collected from our back garden in a bucket) at the unsuspecting rushmates from our upstairs bathroom window. the rushmates were ready to attack whomever opened the door, but they didnt expect an attack from above. i say, genius plan, illah!

3)anisah being *wagamama-ed by rez, atiq and myself. it was a funny thing to watch. basically we had a game where the other team had to wagamama the opponent's file holder (awu we had props for the game!). kesian c nisah, sudah tah kurus. we crush her into the snow; she literally looked like a pile of clothes on the snow after the struggle. her and rez line dance for a bit (im guessing because rez takut pin her down since she is a girl) before i came and took nisah down. lol

fyi, we ALL got wagamama-ed that night except for illah. shauqi kana dua kali.

4) various ppl falling all over the place when attempting to 'skate' or 'ski' ie drag the feet in the ice then sliding as far as u can. there was a lot who fell on bums, one actually fell on the face, and anisah managed to poke me in the eye with her snow-covered gloved hands before falling on her bum.

5) somebody from a house yelled to us "keep it down before i call the cops". the next day, vivi, zatee and hanim went back to the scene of the crime (lol) to take pictures and got chatted up by an old lady who said "last night there were about 20 kids playing here making noise. it wasnt u, right?"

vivi kept a straight face and said 'no' and the old lady said 'oh well, they looked about ten or eleven last night'.


hahahaha. atu cali. we looked like ten year olds? must be our height and all the running around LOL.

i want it to snow again like sunday. today the weather's warmer so the snow everywhere is melting, turning into sludge and making everything icy and muddy. ick.

my housemates are currently in major pain after the snowfight, with bruises here and there and its been two days already. we concluded that its because they werent fit, biasa duduk rumah apa, skali sudah snow, lari2x. i feel fine, alhamdulillah. if only exercise can be as fun as a snowfight all the time.

anyway, was gonna write a play by play but it'll bore u too much coz i dont do pictures. pictures are already up on fb tho. tunggu illah upload videos lgi. the videos LAGI TIA CALI! u will totally LOL. even the thought of it makes me LOL. haha.

bah imma go b4 i start talking crazy.

much love,
be'ah xoxo

translation:
*toyota: to attack, ambush, attack simultaneously.
*wagamama: to pin down a person and roll them in the snow.

and it all started with strawberries..

the weekend is here! the weekend is here!

i've been so busy and up to my eyes with reading law. it just hit me how much reading there really is =S

boy, was i glad the weekend arrived. last term i had class till 6 on fridays, this term i finish by 4 so 2 more hours in my weekend =)

nis went to town and brought back a chocolate cake from m&s which is just so moist and chocolatey and sinful! i've been trying to lose the couple of kilos i gained over xmas, so to counter the chocolatey taste (cause there is NO WAY that i am not eating choc cake thats staring in my face) i suggested we decorate the cake with strawberries.

one thing led to another and before we knew it, the cake was a fully fledged decorated cake, complete with five candles. courtesy of nis, illah and myself.

pictures up on fb, per usual.

not that our decorating skills are handal or anything. we got so carried away we almost made the cake inedible. first were the strawberries, then we had some pink pearls and buttons and sugar that illah was supposed to use on cupcakes but nda menjadi.

then we felt like having candles. so we celebrated our UN-birthday and blew the candles out together.

mcm kesian plg.. but that was how we started our weekend.

then while watching american idol, i thought struck me of measuring anisah. anisah's on this weight gain regime while yours truly is obviously on a weight-loss regime, so i thought it'd be nice to have some sort of target and whatnot.

nis brought out her measuring tape out to the living room and we measured everything from waist to lip width (awu, kami jobless) and found some surprising discoveries..

anisah's hips are bigger than mine. but her waist is tinier. so i guess thats to do with our body shape. but this isnt surprising plg. no wonder shes going on a weight gain regime.

how her hips are bigger than mine when she's a size smaller than me just proves that my derriere is just pancake flat.

anisah has fat fingers. her index measure 2.5 while mine was 2inches. i mean, we always knew she had fat fingers, but we never reli knew by how much.

the most startling for me however, is how our arms measured up. we were the same top to bottom, across, down and up, wrist, length, shoulders.. the whole hoopla.

i always thought her arms were small. rupanya my arms pun sama hee. but then i believe its to do with my muscles. anisah's is all fat =p

in conclusion, my arms are small as nis's because i do my weights. now if i can only have the same dedication for sit ups....

have a great weekend everybody. krg saya jamming with the rushmates.

much love,
be'ah xoxo