"you know you've made it big when people you don't know hate you."

"inside some of us is a thin person struggling to get out, but they can usually be sedated with a few pieces of chocolate cake."
- Anonymous

"Weight management has to be an uncompromising, non-negotiable, everyday thing, like brushing your teeth"
Linda Spangle, 100 Days of Weight Loss

Monday, May 10, 2010

my first leave

was today, for half a day.

went to work as usual in the morning. went back home for lunch and came back to the office with a throbbing head. like my head was having a disco party without inviting me.

then everybody started saying how red i was.

then the pain got a bit unbearable and knowing that i cant produce QUALITY work, i asked permission to leave. had to go to the clinic to get an official medical cert but yes, today is the day i took my first leave.

anyhoots, 12 days and counting! =D


much love,
rabi'a xoxo

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

stress?

i never knew you can be stressed without FEELING stressed. i've always thought it matters in how you feel and the body will follow suit, but this week's experience alone have proven otherwise.

but i'll start from the beginning.. say, a month back when my boss was on leave and out of the country.

the night before she started her leave (ie where the next day i'd be alone at the office manning the legal front), i went to the salon to get my usual treatment. During the head massage, my stylist asked 'are u stressed?' to which i replied no but was then told that my 'urat kencang' which meant not only was i stressed, i was super stressed.

but okay, im only 23. and i go to the gym regularly. maybe thats why 'urat kencang'.

so that was the first warning flag. second flag was during a facial. the facialist was massaging my eyes and was saying that my eyes are stressed. okay, i will always have dark circles and eyebags coruetsy of my late nights 7-8 years ago. i shrugged it off. towards the end of the facial, she massaged my shoulders and neck and exclaimed 'you are stressed! this part here is tight!' whilst giving extra pressure to my left shoulder.

okay.. thats twice. and i wasnt feeling stressed. how can you feel stressed in the middle of a hair treatment or facial??

plus the facialist woke me up by her claim that i was stressed. sheesh.

however, the past 2 days were heavy days for me. yes i was feeling stressful. skali baruuutah terasa my left shoulder anie berabis tight. since i finally felt stressed ystrdy and thought i deserved a good massage, i made an impromptu appointment that afternoon for a massage, body scrub and body mask.

and it was soooo good! not wanting to sound cliche, but the whole package really did me good. i feel like new! hee. cliche as that sounds, its true =) i was thinking of releasing stress at the gym, but i thot better of it because krg makin stress.

now lets see how long the after effects of last night's spa treatment lasts me.

much love,
rabi'a xoxo