friendster status

i was just browsing through frenster and was viewing a friend's recently updated profile. friend is now 'in a relationship' after being single for about 4 months. i think this is friend's 3rd time being 'in a relationship' since friend added me on friendster a year ago. the first two relationships were 'long-term'. yes, this friend will remain anonymous coz this is not a personal lash.

its about common sense and logic and pure sanity and maybe taking a REALISTIC view on love. one of friend's photo caption reads 'madly in love.. finally!' and i cant help thinking to myself 'dont u mean "madly in love.. again?"'

so this is another issue on friendster that isnt really addressed properly. we keep lashing out on testimonials that arent really testimonials, having different acounts but with the same friends (which reminds me, said friend has two accounts and im on both friends list) and the fake trying-to-get-attention-but-nobody-really-calls-u-that name. i FREAKIN' have a problem with people's status issues!

for one thing, i see ppl who say 'its complicated' are ppl in denial or ppl who are just getting to know their beaus. hello? if ur getting to know ur beau, ur still damn single la! its as simple as getting married- if ur not hitched, ur single right? or at least in a relationship. nobody says their status is 'complicated' at the eve of their wedding night. unless of course, it REALLY is complicated, and thats not good.

so let me run thru with what 'its complicated' reli is. for one thing, the dictionary defines complicated as

1. To make or become complex or perplexing.
2. To twist or become twisted together.
3. composed of elaborately interconnected parts; complex: complicated apparatus for measuring brain functions.
4. difficult to analyze, understand, explain, etc.: a complicated problem.

so unless ur status falls under any of the definitions above, dont put 'its complicated'. no shame in being single, i say. and i know most of u guys will relate to number 4. so good for u guys who knw the real meaning. but for those people who, as we say, are 'in process', jgntah kan buat 'its complicated' because its not.

and speaking of which, its amazing how many people my age are married. heck, even ppl younger than me, little 15-yr-olds are married. that is, if ur gullible enough to believe their status on frenster.

hello freakin world! i know u guys are in love, but in love does not, i repeat, does NOT equal being married. yes, u feel like u guys are married, u guys have been together since the day of adam and eve, but for f**ks sake, until u have a ring on ur finger, u are not married! so now lets check out what 'married' means in the dictionary:

1. united in wedlock
2. joined in matrimony

so have u guys exchanged any vows lately? no.. well.. then ur just 'in a relationship' honey, no matter how much in love u are. try getting married for a start to even consider using that 'married' status. oh, what was that? 'hubby; stil in skool? WHAT 'hubby'? oh, u mean BOYFRIEND!

and this married issue irks me more nowadays becoz i actually do have more than a couple of actual-exchanged-vows-signed-certificate-in-front-of-the-imam married frens, so when a long lost fren adds me and their status is 'married' i think 'congratulations!' only to be fooled again. look, im happy that my frens are in love but please use the status appropriately so as to not confuse ppl like me? please and thank u!

anyhow, im a bit off track. let get back to people such as said friend. friend is in love finally/again (however u may see it). all i can say is, ur confusing ppl like me again. when ur single, bukan main saying stuff like 'oh im done with love', 'i dont believe in lov', 'all guys suck' etc etc. skali sudah in love 'oooh i found the one' or 'i love u forever'. this last one irks me especially becoz its like, ur forever somehow doesnt match with mine. okay i wont go thru the dictionary again, but isnt forever like, forever? then why is it that u break up, rant off him and all jerks of the world, then find another guy and say 'i'll love u forever', again?

ppl, i know u should love with all ur heart and i know its nice to love and be loved in return. heck, one of my fave quotes is 'the greatest gift in the world is to love and be loved in return'...

but dont take the word 'forever', lightly. and i know u feel all high (with love) with ur boyfren but when u feel the same with ALL ur boyfrens stop and think. dont u think love's a special feeling for ONE special particular someone? then why are u feeling the same kind of love-high with ALL ur boyfrens? oh yea. maybe its called 'infatuation' or even 'puppy-love'. look up the dictionary urself this time :p

i say true love is when u get thru shitloads of hell and still manage to stay together and feel the same way as the first day u got together. there is no 'the honeymoon stage is over' phase. that honeymoon stage should last throughout ur whole relationship. only THEN can u say ur truly madly deeply in love.. but dont promise forever if u have even the slightest sliver of a doubt of keeping that promise. im not saying dont say 'i love u', but just dont take 'forever' lightly. and i knw the very ppl who say 'i love u forever' are the very ppl who had their hearts broken mercilessly. so dont keep the cycle going by breaking innocent passerbys' hearts.

oh shizzle. haha i just realised my last paragraph was so not a realistic view and have therefore contradicted myself. hey, i can be a realist and a dreamer. its called optimist ;)

the real world

i present to u a scenario. a rape case.

woman is raped by a man. he threatens her with a knife. fearing for her life, she consents and proceeds to take off her clothing. to stall time, she asked for a condom. she wanted everything done and over with so everything was done quickly.

afterwards, woman sends man to a place where he wanted to be dropped off. still fearing for her life, she drove him to the spot. woman engages man in small talk to take his mind off killing her. she still fears that he will change his mind about letting her go.

once the man was out of her sight, woman burst into tears, relieved that it is over but shocked that it happened. she drove to the nearest police station and lodged a report.

the man was charged with rape but found not guilty.

where is justice, u think?

according to law, rape is defined as intentional penile penetration of the vagina, anus or mouth of another person who does not consent to the penetration and that the man does not reasonably believe that the person consents.

and that he has to be proven guilty beyond reasonable doubt.

so i guess there must've been some doubt in convicting the man. maybe the jury and judge saw the woman taking off her clothes as consent.

statistics show that around half of all convictions were results of guilty pleas, but when a full trial took place, an acquittal was the more likely outcome.

sucks, innit?

... but thats life in court.

Chinese New Year Celeb

CNY was fab. my decorations were appreciated - had ppl playing with the balloons and dragons in the end and the food was delish. rezzykin's pudding was a hit and everything was just fun fun fun! everybody looked coordinated and gorgeous wearing red, black and white, colors that conquered the day, with a dash of pink. But the bruneians didnt forget their national day.. we played some brunei traditional songs, altho they made us slighty doze off LOL. anyway, i knw d brunei ppl bebaris today and not ystrdy, so

SELAMAT MEYAMBUT HARI KEBANGSAAN YG KE 23!

enjoy the pictures!



















lastly, i introduce to you the latest sensation to hit the music scene. Bramshaw Babes feat Rabz. their first album called 'panat' will be in stores soon and features nasyid songs with RnB vibes ;p

i'm still alive!

hello everyone~ haha mcm apa sja my title ah. the thing is, i feel like its been forver since i havent posted anything. baru plg 3 days. but i guess coz a lots been happening so yea. just some quickies to let u guys knw im still safe and healthy.

BUT before that, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYAMIE! its today rite? i thot 22nd but frenster syas its today so today tah tu. semoga d berkati Allah SWT dan d murahkan rezeki, panjang umur, the works =)

so its been zapin practice over and over agen. not to mention meeting my essay deadline. hopefully i do better for that essay than the last time. zapin practice has taken form, another rehearsal and then we do a DRESS rehearsal one! so ppl, cooome and see our costumes!! all i can say is, the outfit is payaah to cari! but i went to town tdi with bianca, nis and met up with tok guru aka elina (jgn marah elina~) hehe and we found turtlenecks and tights. but there werent many so only me and elina got one. and i also got tights! so now all thats left for me to get is a black scarf to wear over my head.

to my family: yes, i'm still gonna wear my tudong during zapin =D

erm.. okay apa lgi ah. this post as u can see, is basically random stuff. watever comes to mind i type. so CNY is coming, and im in charge of deco, and i went to town tdi with the intention of buying a zapin outfit and decoratiosn stuff BUT i totally forgot abt the decorations!!! instead, i bought myself a nice pair of red shoes, thinking i;ll wear them for CNY.

HELLO! i forgot decorations but remembered shoes for CNY!

typical plg tu... =p

oh and the bf hasnt been feeling well lately, but now he's a bit better, thank god. been worried abt tthat coz when he's damam, ts like, foreverness bah. but its looking good now. his job doesnt help either. KALAU OFF-DAY, DONT CALL HIM OKAY FAX??

haha. menteeelll.. but still. he xplained to me sumthing abt if u have a blocked nose them flying makes it worse. i wont bore u with details but basically the worst case scenario wud be him damaging his eardrum, license taken away, job revoked, i have a boyfren with no job..

THEN HOW WILL I GET MY FAIRYTALE WEDDING??

na'uzubillah!

oohhh.. which reminds me. i've been thinking and thinking abt weddings (haha. sorry bu. but im still doing my work, serius.) and sumtimes i think, why go thro all the hype of nikah, bebadak, sanding, ambil-ambilan and mulih 3 hari? ngalih sja.. then u spend lots of money.. sumtimes even on ppl u dont even knw (like wedding crashers or ur grand aunt's daugther-in-law's brother or sumthing) i thot, nikah sja bah!

haha so i had this idea abt just a small cosy nikah ceremony. i want it to be meaningful, with the ppl i KNOW and love and will appreciate the meaning of joining two kekasihs in holy matrimony. bukan kan dtg psl makan free. but mind u, i want it classy. since its only that one ceremony, literally, for my wedding, i thot i shud pull out all the stops. so i was thinking radzuan radziwill, tres chic wedding planner nadiah ahmad rafie (u've never heard of her? shes very pemes u knw!!), millions of fresh white lilies, pink lilies, white roses and pink roses, favors/campurs taht are personalised, david cheok, WHITE limo for when the bf-soon-to-be-hubby arrives, customized cream carpet from c kapet kwn ka nadz, and yes ka, still a million flowr girls (suruh tia c tasya mengumpul kawan2x banyak),maybe catered by empire hotel.. haha the works la!

.. so wat do u think bu?

okay nevermind. haha i knw u wont answer that. oh and constant references to my mummy reminds me that now i can regularly skype with my family. they just bought a couple of macbooks so yea we skype now. just as long as it doesnt clash with my skype time with the boyfie =p hehe nadawah. both get equal chances. baik jua time durang free anie nda sama.

anyhoos.. i am still a donut addict. bianca says i look like a manic. mana ada B! haha well u wudnt undertsand that plg.. haha ask me next time. but rezzykins is in london., and that measn krispy kreme! HURRAY!!

okay sekian wabillahitaufiq walhidayah. assalamu'alaikum warramatullahiwabarakatuh

eeeeeeee c rabz EMO!

atu bah. i have a few shoutouts to give out.

to my brothers: kaka mau baaaliiikkk!!! kaka mau makan nasi katokkk!!!

to the boyfren: sayaaaaaaang me mau mkn sushiiii!!!

to effy: feeeee lajutah mkn d mamiiiiih!

to izzah: zzzzaaah! solitude! tiramisu?

buyai: yai! bah, fratinis ah nanti

bianca: i waaaant donutttsss!!

kaka McNuts: UIIIII lajutah mkn d wagamama!

lydz: aku mauuu mee jawaaaa

fifi: feeeeeeeeeeeeeeee i want chicken rice!!

to jirin: beluuutaaaaakkkk!!!

erm.. apa lgi ah. haha makanan sja nie. sehat nie. hahahahahaha.

err. MENTEEELLL~ saya rindu masakan barunai.

peace.

karma

This song is obviously about karma. i cant help but relate to it.. although im on the other side of the story ie the cheater. but i fell in love with this song sooo much that i've decided to do a whole post on karma, or actually, how karma bit me back in the ass, hard! :s

oh and just to make this fun without the whole serious shit of what goes around comes aorund, i give u the lyrics so u can sing along =p

Hey girl, is he everything you wanted in a man?
You know I gave you the world
You had me in the palm of your hand
So why your love went away
I just can't seem to understand
Thought it was me and you babe
Me and you until the end
But I guess I was wrong

Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry
It's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

Now girl, I remember everything that you claimed
You said that you were moving on now
And maybe I should do the same
Funny thing about that is
I was ready to give you my name
Thought it was me and you, babe
And now, it's all just a shame
And I guess I was wrong

Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Can you tell me is this fair?

Is this the way things are going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
(should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)
That you were going to make me cry
Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

What goes around comes around
Yeah
What goes around comes around
You should know that
What goes around comes around
Yeah
What goes around comes around
You should know that

Don't want to think about it (no)
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it (yeah)
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way things are going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
(should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)
That you were going to make me cry
Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
But that's okay baby 'cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

[Comes Around interlude:]

Let me paint this picture for you, baby

You spend your nights alone
And he never comes home
And every time you call him
All you get's a busy tone
I heard you found out
That he's doing to you
What you did to me
Ain't that the way it goes

You cheated girl
My heart bleeds girl
So it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt
Just a classic case
A scenario
Tale as old as time
Girl you got what you deserved

And now you want somebody
To cure the lonely nights
You wish you had somebody
That could come and make it right

But girl I ain't somebody with a lot of sympathy
You'll see

(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey

[laughs]
See?
You should've listened to me, baby
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Because
(What goes around comes back around)
[laughs]

the story: how karma got me back (i realised this was more appropriate than 'how karma bit me in the ass)


back in 2004, i was happily dating faidan for about 4mths then. come may/june of that year, started seeing McNut's brother. see, here is where i fault. i cheated on my then-boyfren. i can argue that i lost contact with faidan, and that McNut's brother was always thre for me. so who can u blame, huh?

of course. karma got me immediately just when i thot i would have a happy ending.i wont go into details, but obviously my relationship with McNut's bro didnt work- it was my most painful and heartbreaking relationship ever and the break-up that followed suit, although 'amiable', was like a stake that pierced my heart. to add salt to the wound, my friendship with him can never be as it was before. but i guess its better this way. he was also the only ex-boyfren that i had to take time to get over with. oh yes, karma bit me REAL hard.

so after that episode, who could blame me but to go to my old ways? i didnt go back to cheating, but i was never serious with a guy after that. i can remember hurting two guys after that. i went out with them, they fell for me, but i said 'no, not interested in anything serious'.

so there u go. and what goes around comes back around. so after those 2 guys, i actualy found a guy who i could see potential relationship material. but karma got me! he didnt want me like i wanted him. OUCH! till this day this guy i still hate and despise. haha.

oooh but now for the fun part. my happy ending =D

after all that pain and heartache and the tears, especially with McNut's brother, i have finally (i hope) found my one and only. we met thru his sister and he is the best ever boyfren that i can ever wish for. i know jodoh d tangan tuhan, and of course God has better plans than what we've made for ourselves, but have a little faith. what you've worked for is probably what God wanted u to have.

so i have my happy ending now. next agenda will be the fairytale wedding hehehe. opps, i knw my mum reads my blog. so okay, bu, i want a BIG wedding. just so u'll be prepared at the magnitude of how i want my wedding hehe.

p/s some of u guys will probably think of 'si kawan' while i write abt this whole karma thing. well im not worried, coz that case is one of the few cases that i truly believed was deserved, although its not in our hands to give back karma. oh well. well see what happens next coz if anything does happen, it'll definitely go up here. in the meantime, enjoy the song!

doo bie doo bi dum dum~

so i got bored.. and tada! haha. betchu ka nadz wants aundrey and fifi wants grace :p

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oooh and i just found out that rosie has a blog. but she doesnt haf a tagboard yet! so rosie, this post is dedicated to u. welcome to the blogging world =)

weddings and babies

oooh i just got back from london, well, zapin practice to be exact. i left my cute adorable gorgeous cousin in london, and shes gonna fly off back home to brunei tomoro. *sob* im gonna miss u hana zahirah!!



oh a brighter note, i hear anti-kawan campaign is getting stronger. or not stronger, just that now 'si kawan' is aware of it. well, i've got wat i wanted by posting that particular post. good riddance!

oooh and b4 i left for london, me rezzy and ka nadz went crazy with wedding plans. whose? mine and rezzy's. ka nadz is gonna be my wedding planner and we've got all thse ideas just bubbling thru. we've got similar ideas u knw.. haha thats why she said i cannot copy her coz we've got more or less the same tast.e but im sure ka, with u planning my wedding, u'll do ur best to make it as lovely and lawa w/o having an resemblance to urs. kalau ada pun, its the white lilies, not hte pony and a thousand flower girls. for more info, click on McNuts' blog =D

zapin practice is going well as usual. i miss the first one where they learnt new moves but i think i caught on well. i just hope elina thinkc so! which goes to my reason for why i cudnt come to lastnite's practise - i was in london! haha i did a comment on ka nadz' frenster saying i did a 'si-kawan'. well, we all know how shes always in london kan. gila eh mortified ku tarus. dats why i took the coach home the next day haha.



so i was suppose to balik to canterbury on monday, but my babu ita, mother of this gorgeous 5-weeks old baby, bribed me into staying a day longer by buying me zara jeans. so i have new jeans, one extra day in london. thus the plan of coming back to canterbury was moved to tuesday. tuesday morning, my nini damit came, and he convinced me to stay another nite. he didnt succeed, but by the time babu ita sent me to victoria coach station at half past 8. the next coach was at 10 and there was no way i was gonna wait for 2 hrs! so i went home.

then this is hte part where the wireless at home started working and so saw ka nadz left a comment on my frenster snd i realised that i did a 'si kawan'!!!!

so on wednesday i promptly balik home to canterbury. and my room smeeellll oh-so nice!! my lilies have opened up and the smell of roses and lilies is just so overpowering, but in a nice way. so im back home now, blogging =)

oh, and with a half-finished essay on obligations1. damn, and i just remembered i need to do the online test.. i'll do that tomoro sja. haha. in the meantime isnt hana just adoooraable???

girl who makes me sweat =p

Happy Birthday feeeqskadoodledooo!!!!

hehe. blajar bersungguh2x. get the grades u need and come to hengland and we go paris together2x yes?? love u many2x babe! a year older a year wiser. or in ur case, a year older a year spastic-er? hahahaha have a great day feeks! *hugs*



*miss the old days of stripey forehead with u huhu

quick pick-me-up

my post before the last was definitely mental but i got these beauties in the mail today. im not exactly un-mental, but these flowers made my day. thanx syg! happy (advance) anniversary to u too. i love u =D





lawaaa kann? hehe

dedicated to safwan =D

mental jiwa dan raga

shapa semlm ckp aku nightmare ah? ka sel ka? or ziyah?

well i did. YAAAAA ALLAH! kenapa tia 'si kawan' atu menjelma semula dlm hidup ku!!!

according to ka cell, if looks could kill, 'si kawan' would be dead by now, judging from the look i gave 'si kawan'.

but 'si kawan' anie jenis babal bah. INNNDAAAAA paham nyanta!! mentaaaal ku eh.

i restrained every fibre and energy of my being lastnite to keep myself from snapping. i managed, but for how long? if ka nadz didnt nudge me i'd probably unleash a whole bunch of profanities and insults that i've ever heard and learn in my 20yrs of existence in this cynic world enough to make 'si kawan' cry and go back to brunei!

or just enough to make 'si kawan' stop talking to me.

aaah.. that would be bliss.

actually, the real bliss is me swearing to her face.

god i am evil.

pls restrain me before i get pulled off my scholarship scheme for murder.

cemana kan tu anak atu? nda lgi sadar kah? kiri kanan atas bawah makin basar masih pakai baju cematu. trynna act cute like we like it. well heres a msg for u, no we dont like it.

u wanna try making up for it? try apologising... oh wait. u've done that havent u? well maybe coz u havent done it for the sake of hurting us.. u only apologised bcoz ur afraid of having no frens here. eh wait, wat am i saying? thats not fear, thats reality. tell me, who are ur frens agen?

'si kawan' anie untung plg psl im not a violent person. i only play words. nda padas kan? eh wait, oh yes.. the pen is sharper than the knife. opps!

did i just hurt u? well no, coz 'si kawan' anie thick-skin. plus ia nda tau blog anie. if 'si kawan; does find out pun, mana jua ada effect tu. 'si kawan' has got skin thicker than a rhino's hide..

but thats okay.. i enjoy piercing that thick skin slooowly till it gets to where it hurts. some extra curricular activity for me. take it as my welcome back gift to 'si kawan'!

see, im not that bad. i have a gift for her. kamu yg lain mana ada kan? :p

i need to go out tonite. heck if im still this stressed out, id even try to shisha. but pray that i dont. 'si kawan' is not worth killing myself for. oooh if 'si kawan' dtg, ka buleh i prepare the shisha thingy? and make sure 'si kawan' ampir.

yes, i've got actus reus. but mens rea? nobody can tell bcoz 'si kawan' anie kawan ku. tu liat dari tdi dah ku panggil 'si kawan' ah. special kan, be nickname.

like me and ka nadz have mcgiggles and mcnuts.

and me and bianca haf rabzilumpkins and binky zinky.

'si kawan has a special place in my heart =D

=D <-- that look doesnt kill ppl, ka sel.

bah eh andang tah ku. haha menteeeeeeeeeel~~~

especially for my brothers in brunei. jeleeess?? =p

dear safwan and alai. heres some more pictures. enjoy!












giving bianca my blessing..




oh what a happy day!













and finally rounding off the snow fights with lunch at gulbenkian's =D






P/S to babu: the girl with me is bianca, hongkong girl hehe

ITS SNOOOOWINNG!!!!

i got a call from rezzy at about 5 ish. went out at 6am =D

pictuuuuuurreees!!!























and finally a lil' bit of bollywood in the snow!

one two three four, one two three four

.. the words/numbers i kept hearing for the past 2hrs or so.

my left toe pinky is sore..

my hips are aching..

my shoulders are stiff..

sounds like i was in a power aerobic class? think again.

i was in Miss Elina's power zapin class!

but i had fun. today was the first practise for wat is to become a nightly one next week, for our performance on international night. i kinda cringed at the idea of a practise everynite.. but then i have reading week next week so thats fine with me.

and i mean i reli reli reli enjoyed it. i just hope i get better at it. me and izan and ani were laughing thru the first few steps but we got the hang of it =)

congratulations to bianca for not only able to do the moves, but to do them gracefully (despite the spastic face hehe ;) hehe kidding B)

and sorry, safwan, kaka nada gambar. but nanti kwn kaka post gambar. safwan aga arah "blogs of friends" on the left hand-side and click on 'afiif'.

to fifi: baiktah ko post gambar2x tdi ah. adi ku expecting tu. haha

lops lops
rabz

we're all weirdos

"Each player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. "

rezzykins keeps tagging me. i feeel looooved!! haha apakan? okay okay. 6 weird things about me:

oh wait. u knw wat i just realised? most of rezzy's weird things are more the less similar to mine.. how do i say that w/o plagarising??

1. like wat rezzy said about him not able to do an hour of schoolwork but can stay up for hours doing something unproductive? thats me. i cant sit still doing my obs1 seminar work but i can stay up for HOURS just watching grey's anatomy, ugly betty, america's next top model and even the boring britain's next top model.

2. and i also set my alarm earlier than when i have to be up. but in my case, its an hour early. so then i happily go back to sleep knowing i still have an hour's worth of sleep.

then i became blank at this point.. so i asked my boyfren who's on skype to tell me wats weird abt me. he said im random coz i talk about anything and everything.


3. threfore, number 3 is me being random. my boyfren justified his point by telling me how i'll be all quiet one moment and then i'll be talking about guess handbags or bilah's cooking that is constantly making me drool the next

so thats another similarity to rezzy's weird traits.. hmm...

4. im a donut addict. haha a trait i recently realised. coz if u think about it, thre arent many decent donuts in brunei, if any. here i've got krispy kreme, bake n' bite, marks and spencers.. even bilah's recipe. haha. and bianca will testify that i am overprotective of my donuts! i share, but i'll only share with ppl who have the same passion as me for donuts.. like anisah! hehe

5. i lotion my hands every time after i wash my hands, berwudhu, wash the dishes etc. basically after every time i get my hands wet, my nivea Q10 moisturiser follows suit

6. i have a lating boyfren.

haha. sorry about the number 6. im just reli blanked out by this time. if i think of anything, i'll edit this post. in the meantime, be happy with this, rez!

and yes, ppl who i wanna tag are...

1. ka nadz
2. fifi
3. syamim, ani, izan and amal! semua kamu tu ah!!
4. kashful rahman aka mr. president
5. hanna diyana kharunisa (hehe lurus kah spelling ku han?)
6. bilah aka abyll aka my food saviour! this is the 2nd time i've tagged u! hehe

love love
rabzilulu

blog illustrated

my 10-yr-old brother, safwan, came up to me on msn ystrdy and said

'ka. taruh gambar bah arah website kaka'

haha. that was cute. apparently my family reads my blogs. but this particular brother is only interested in pictures. i asked him to just read wat ive put up and his reply was

'malas safwan baca. panjang bah.'

so, for his benefit, this post will have pictures =D

from an overdue picture from our shisha session at lavender mews..




















...to lastnite's pictures of lydz' surprise birthday party at carmen's








oooh! and HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY LYEEDYA! hope u had fun lastnite =)))

again.. this thing is addicitve..

What Type Are You?

You are a Hopeless romantic

Do you swoon when a guy recites poetry to you? Go ga-ga over a bouquet of hand-picked wildflowers? Then there's no doubt about it — you're a textbook Hopeless Romantic. Chances are you love soft music, candlelight, and long walks on the beach at sunset. Crying at sappy movies (your favorite kind) is a given — a box of tissues is a must — and you've have had your wedding planned since grade school. You're looking for a deep relationship — a soulmate. Traditional and sympathetic, guys love that they can open up to you and talk to you about their feelings, their past, and their hopes for the future. How can a suitor win your heart? By romancing you. Sending you flowers, surprising you with a picnic lunch, or going for a horse-drawn carriage ride. Before you know it, you'll be creating a life-long love story.

boo. aren't we all? but like ka nadz mentioned, us girls are gonna have to go half the way to make it real. but we gangsta girls dont mind =) coz when its the right guy, it'll just happen kan?

*syg, this post is specially dedicated for you. hehe

whats your flavour?

got bored. boyfren's not up. so i took a few tests at tickle.com. and i am..

... peppermint! Crisp and refreshing, you're the flavour of refreshing chewing gum and elegant after-dinner mints. If you were a season, you'd be winter -- bracing and energising, but cosy, too. Your honesty and forthright personality make people feel like they've known you forever -- they can't help but be drawn to your sweet, fresh nature. Perhaps a little old-fashioned, and occasionally shy, you're generally happy and well liked. Traditional and invigorating, you're a truly tasty treat.

haha. i dont know. u be the judge. mwah

happy happy day(s)

ooooh guess what guess what? i'm in a very chirpy happy mood! hehe so now, lets think what would make rabz happy..

*tashry can probably guess this*

and tashry is correct! i went shopping ystrdy! its been awhile since i've properly shopped and ystrdy me nis and ziyah went out full force attacking the streets of canterbury. me and zie got 2 pairs of shoes each and nisah got 3! i'll have to beat that record soon. the only problem i find here is that the vogue shoes i like have pig skin lining so i cant really buy them cud i? but on the whole, im happy with my purchase: while pumps from new look (which took ages to retrieve coz it was on the top shelf and me nis and zie arent exactly built for err.. tall places) and black flats from qube. i've had my eye on the flats since i got my leopard print shoes but they were a tad too expensive back then at 20quid. but ystrdy i got them for 8quid! ahh.. the simple and hapy life of shopping.. a good bargain just makes u wanna buy buy buy!

and on a brighter-than-northern-star note, me and housemates have finally secured a house at st micheal's street having paid the deposit ystrdy. the place looks like a shithole at the mo, but dave (the guy working for our landlord) said they just bought the place and they're gonna renew everything form top to bottom.. meaning we'll have newly painted walls, new carpet, new kitchen cabinets, new toilets (yes we haf two nyahahah), new tiles, new crockery, a lot of sunlight and we get to choose wat colour our room's gonna be. i'm thinking of fuchsia for mine. haha its my last chance to have a normal girly adolescence room seeing that i plan to marry once i graduate. coz to be frank, however much my boyfren loves me, i doubt he's gonna let me have my pink butterflies and fairy lights and bright pink walls for our newly-wed room.

so anyhoos, the point is that we're gonna have a spanking new place to live in. and dave looks and sounds like a nice man. so good landlord - check. good house- check. good location-check. good housemates-CHECK!

AND on a much brighter-than-thou-sun-shining-brightly note, me, nisah and ziyah (my future hsemates, the 4th one is bianca) have the same shoe size so we can and WILL share shoes! isnt that a bonus? i get nice frens and nice hsemates and triple the size of my shoe wardrobe. life is good indeed.

oh, and i adjusted my watch already. so if anybody needs the time, ask me! hehe

love love
rabzilulu