Civic Course soon...

how the hell am i going to fit in at least 30mins of workout a day during the 4 days 4 NIGHTS of Kursus Sivik?

me needs to get dumbells pronto. the nikes ones will do. in pink, of course. altho i bet i'll look silly carrying weights. i mean, krg kana pikir

"apakan bini2x anie anti-social jua. kan workout rather than socialising?"

or even worse "eh b*tch jua bini2x anie. 4days without weights pun nda buleh?"

a friend told me that there'll be 'banyak makan tu' to appease my reluctance at the idea of staying overnight. majorly wrong thing to say. i mean, i'm not against food (harhar, who is?) and especially in the light of the recent food debate which i wont even go into but honestly, having MORE than breakfast lunch tea dinner AND supper is ridiculous. the aim is to have healthy, driven [insert other positive attributes] youths, not stuff them with junk (yes it wil be junk bcoz i have no doubt it will be the usual fare of karipaps and mee goreng etc).

u are what u eat. if u feed ur body with junk, u will be junk.

now dont get me wrong. im a girl who loves food and i cant resist a piece (a piece? try a whole bar!) of chocolate and i have a pina colada from DQ every other day after my workout. the difference? i workout. i'm not telling each and everyone to go to the gym or work out sampai pengsan nor am i telling ppl to portion control

BUT

wheres the balance in feeding us up seven-times-a-day for 4 days and only giving us one measly senamrobik session?

eat the food, burn the calories jua. its like work hard play hard. or watevr ppl say these days. so apply that to exercise its eat hard and exercise hard (?)

yes, as u can tell, i'm slightly moody. but to ppl who accidently bumped into this blog and are going to the civic course with me, SEE YOU GUYS SOON!

and dont worry, im much nicer (and less snappier) in person. lol.

ooh i was googling for a pink dumbells image but lookee wat i found instead!




okay i changed my mind! i want this pair instead. talk about modern and ultra chic! having stuff like this just ups the drive to work out, y'know? wonder if they have it in pink.

i need to get a life eh. cant believe im actually googling dumbell images. maybe the civic course is just what i need. a chance to socialise and take a not-so-manic apprroach to gym life.

i'll find out after next week then.

much love,
be'ah xxxxxxxxxxx

Sunday Morning Sun is Shining

i didnt have PT today because Rose has a yoga workshop to go to.

so i slathered my face with sunblock and sunscreen till i look positively white (awu im very anal abt sunburn, wat with skin cancer and all. but more psl i dont wanna get darker haha. plus i met ezzah ystrdy who is currently suffering from too much sun. get well soon zah!) and i went to padang kebajikan for some track running =)

okay, i didnt do any running. i jogged a measly 500m sa-ha-ja. buruk eh :s

normally i'd still go to the gym even if rose cancelled PT but my second youngest brother is representing his school in the pesta sukan for the 100m and 400m, so he asked me to bawa him to a track so he cud practice. aku mcm sitaie kan belumba with him.


(my brother's reli good btw. he did 100m in 15secs flat and 400metres in 1min19secs! and he's only 11yrs old. reli proud of him!)

sekalinya atu PANAS d padang ah. maan.. takes me back to high school sports days where i'd be sitting under the shade with my cap and sunnies and fanning myself and holding a tall drink of iced lemon tea.

so i tried to avoid the sun as humanely possible while trying to jog around the track. yes, i got a couple of funny looks. in the end i gave up and just occupied myself with my brother's stopwatch (helping him time his progress) and shouting all sorts of encouragement while he ran just to embarrass him.

i think im only athletic when theres full wall-length mirrors, a water dispenser, TV channel tuned to E! and most importantly, air-conditioning.

haha. spoilt much?

kalau d tasek its much cooler cause of the trees and stuff. this morning d padang kebajikan atu.. homaigad begitu teriknya matahari. i'll never be a track and field girl (unless maybe we go in the afternoons). imma stick to the gym, thank you very much!

i guess there's still that girly-i-hate-exercising-and-sweating-rabz inside me.

just as long as i dont go back to the chubby rabz. haha.

much love,
be'ah xxx

Gym

naaah. aku clueless as to what to name this post so gym saja. pretty much sums up what i say anyway.

soo...

the past few days have been slightly depressing for me, and no, bukan psl my boyfren ke singapore. its kinda funny coz my last post was so upbeat. my weight has been soaring up to new heights! that got me down altho of course i cant expect it to stay down what with my eating-out-everyday habit. now the bf is away, im going back to the special k a day diet. plus im meeting my girls this sunday. need to look good for them! haha yes we're sisterly like that.

also been having crappier workouts. antah sumhow sudah weight naik atu, mcm kureeng the semangat. but thank god i had PT (personal training) this morning. back in the groove, i can say =)

PLUS!

i went on the tanita machine again to check up on my progress since 2 weeks back. well, everything went down, including my weight BUT most importantly my fat mass.. which means i'm more toned!

so that made my morning.

cant wait for another 2 weeks. i hope i dont suffer a workout relapse hehe.

thats all i got for now. actually ada plg but me mommy told me to tone down what i say. huhu seee my mum still reads my blog aaah.

to babu 'Hi bu! bah sudah babu balik we facial together aah? love u!'

oh, also to the sayang. gudluck with ur exam majigys in spore ad i love u too!

loves to everyone tah jua nah.

be'ah xxxx

game on =D

i've been toying with the idea of having a separate blog for my gym/exercise/body weights stuff.

basically the stuff u guys skim over (or totally skip) =p

we'll see =0

speaking of separate blogs, mamacits has got her own separate one for her yummilicious and gorgeous baked goodies! check out www.citscakes.blogspot.com. she's good i tell you. one of her first posts are on a liverpool FC cake (complete with a player sitting atop a football!!) and a white chanel bag cake.

and thats only the tip of the iceberg of what she can do. and yes, she made everything from scratch! bah jgntah lgi ke bakeries or watevs. with cits, ur guranteed hand-made and home-made goodies, personalised and affordable. oh, and orgasmically delish, of course! im not just saying this cause she's my aunt. take my word and order from her.

(i called first dibs for a 10-tiered cake. kalau bukan untuk wedding ku, untuk saja2x. haha.)


i remember back when we were kids (awu shes my aunt plg but we're the same age. u knw la.. org barunai. shes's my dad's first cousin bah) and she had this spankin' new barbie oven (yang pink lgi tu!) where u can bake real stuff. one time we wanted to make cookies apa. she was reli into the baking process. i was into the mixing and dipping my hands in the batter sja. sudah the cookies went into the oven, i lost interest. mamacits here, on the other hand, dengan setia menunggu her cookies to be done. oh, in the end i waited too, but only because i wanted to eat the cookies as opposed to cits who waited to see how they turned out.

we were 8 years old.

and now, 13years on and her passion for baking (and cooking! tapi she only takes orders for baked goodies) is stronger than everrr (which reminds me, we used to be the power rangers masa damit. haha random~). so anyhoo, drop by her blog and u'll see why i'm gushing over her like ali does over pokemon.

-end of advertisement-

(mamacits, since im advertising u, my 10-tier cake atu kasi 3 tiers free la ah?)


happy to say i'm back on track with my gym sessions. had a early nite lastnite which was ah-MAYZING! why oh why did i ever stay up late in the first place? mcmtah nda dpt jln siang! didnt sleep after subuh today and was on the treadmill by quarter past SEVEN!

=)))))))))))))))))))))

yes yes im all smiles. altho that smiley makes me think the smiley has double chins.

i planned to take it easy again today (like i did on sunday where i only brisked walked as opposed to running) with the treadmill but then, i'd never knw if i dont push myself. glad to say my monday hiatus did me good. told myself to run for just 10 mins.. which became a full-fledged 20mins! covered 3.7 km too =D

shudve rounded it off to 30mins plg but my throat was gasping for water (still havent mastered the art of running and drinking) and i had a class i wanted to join anyway.

had a mini one-on-one with lyza cause i was the only one in belly dancing class. i love these little sessions because they actually concentrate on u banar2x rather than pass u just because ur flexible. psl dorang anie kan, in a class full of overweight ppl, they ignore the fit ones assuming we knw wat to do. so me very very likey today!

(i discovered that belly dancing is all in the breathing which am still struggling with. new-found respect for shakira maaan. u tink its just hips and belly?)

that said, its good plg they're attentive to the ppl who are obviously struggling.

i'm so in love with my gym.

awu aku happy. and this is without seeing my boyfren today nor ystrdy. two days in a row yo! so transition from boyfren to boyfrenless have been smooth and seams-free.

its all about transferring my love from boy to gym. haha.

much love,
be'ah xxx

(i still miss you, tho)

struggles

am in paaaain and struggling to get my ass off to the gym today.

will update once i get back (or if i go back to sleep, once i wake up).

UPDATED:

so.. watchu guys think? did i or did i not go to the gym?

i was was going thru my iphotos lastnight. i have such random photos. ada sorang atu kuat main my camera wah =p his pseudonym is keluang-man. haha





at ikea's playground while waiting for the girls' parents to get the new coffee table. incidentally it was about 10 minutes before this that i spilt hot coffee on fauzah in ikea's cafeteria =s










keluang-man strikes again. i think he only strikes houses that have throw rugs on the sofas.










time c ali kurus. haha. but seriously.. KURUS AH! this was during our xmas dinner last year.











timeless piece of pictionary drawing. this joke will NEVER get old.












hello kaaaaa! hehe. u look belabih here. lol











bah enough of the iklan.

i DIDN'T go to the gym today. surprised?

heres the story:
i recovered from my banging-headache-fever-selesma combo saturday ptg. went out that night for a last minute dinner with mamacits so ahir tdur. sunday (ystrdy) woke up wayyy early for a sunday morning (and the fact that i had a late night out) all giddy for the gym just because i missed 2 days of working out. had my over-due session with rose (where she pushed me, both figuratively and literally, to do weights and lunges and squats and oh, abs crunches. still cant feel my tummy) and i also had a go on both the treadmill and elliptical machine. sigh, it was a bittersweet reunion for me and the gym machines. i have to say despite what u guys are gonna be reading in the next few paragraphs, ystrdy was the best gyming days i've had so far.

came back oblivious to my body's screams of help (aches and pains). had a family function in the afternoon and went out again at night for dinner with the boyfren. kinda like a farewell dinner cause he starts work today. so there, i was out the entire day on sunday.

skali this morning the pain and aches in my body just crashed into me. so i thought i'd write a quickie post and see if i'd be motivated enough to get up. skali nda.

but i tink it has nothing to do with motivation. i tink i just need to learn to listen to my body more. there's no use toning up my body if what i do is kill it. i've gained back the weight i lost over my damam weekend (so it was just from lack of eating. false alarm hee) but i lost an inch from the waist. its funny how im seeing the results faster by taking days off than continuously going to the gym. ah well. everything in moderation innit?


anyhoo, seeing my girls this sunday! aaaaaah cant wait!!! miss u babes so muchos!

much love,
be'ah xxx

a new angle

no gyming today unfortunately. nor tomoro either, im afraid.

lastnite sometime after maghrib i got the sneezing fits, followed by the case of the runny nose. it soon progressed to blocked nostrils and my ears feeling like i just got off the plane with airasia.

i had to cancel my plans for sushi.

my runny nose is usually a sign that i'm sleep deprived so i didnt really bother too much abt the hundreds of used tissues littering my bedroom. so i had an early nite whereby usually i will wake up the next morning feeling all fresh and better. alas, such wasnt the case today.

i was excited for today for a couple of reasons. one, i have a training session with rose and two, me and the bf had sushi and the dark knight plans for tonite. despite seeing him almost everyday, its been ages since we've had sushi for dinner followed by a movie. plus, we're mushy like that =p

sekaaalinyaaa.. i woke up with a throbbing headache and an even worse runny nose (if it were possible) and felt like the back of my eyes were on fire. i knew i shudve seen this coming what with my restless sleep but optimistic me always gets better after a full night's sleep. heh. i guess it was obvious that i didnt get a full night's shut-eye.

so i had to text rose to cancel the session today. despite cancelling my weights training with her, i still told her i'd make it for pilates. see how semangat i was to go to the gym? spiking fever and my right ear being half deaf and i still wanted to go to the gym (kinda reminds me of a case last year where i had food-poisoning but i still wanted to go to the gym. tsk. i reli dont knw my own limit.) seriously, i wud've gone to pilates.. but after subuh i woke up at 9.. so i definitely wasnt able to make the class. last year my mum had to convince me not to go psl i thought once i threw up (sorry for being explicit) the bad food i'd be up and running for the gym.

sigh. my mummy. i feel like im still in the uk where kalau damam, tau jaga sendiri sja. yea sure my brothers are helpful. ambilkan kaka ubat. basahkan towel for kaka. ambilkan air etc. but they're basically like how my hsemates were helpful in uk. but still no mummy to sponge my feverish body or to hold my hand to sleep or to baca2x ayats and doas over me to make me feel better.

hence no gym report for today. but i thought this fever is probably a way of telling me to take it easy, so i am. i've been in bed most of the day except up to brush my teeth and mkn lunch. its nice that i still have my appetite despite the fever, altho yes, i dont reli feel hungry at all. the thing is, as of this afternoon i was still sure that i can recover in time to make it for my sushi/movie date but its almost 7 and i dont feel any better than i did this morning.so no dinner/dark knight date for me tonite =( plus i shud get an early night in. but yea.. thats 2 dates in a row i've cancelled. and on top of that, i miss him.

thank god he's understanding. hehe but apakan. mun damam, shapa jua kan nda understanding ah. kan d pajal kali org damam bejln. hehe. but yea. i miss him. all for the better i suppose. he needs to study for some tests and i need to get my health back up to par.

i've been wondering tho.. is there any sort of exercise u can do while damam? sorry if im pushing it but im feeling lethargic on top of this fever and its definitely not making me feel any better.

i want some TLC.

much love,
be'ah xxx

weight-ing it out

i just got an email from hsbc about the hearts of borneo challenge. sounds tres interesting. its a cycling thingy from belait to serasa beach. i thought 'hmmm cycling is easier than running so why not?' and then a voice in my head said 'i don't have a bike'.

so jgntah. harhar. so much for being all athletic and semangat. but seriously, i dont need a bike, so why get one just for the event?

(as i'm writing this, it just crossed my mind that i can borrow someone's bike. but naaaaah~)

so how has everyone been? i do realise my usual readers are bored/fed-up/annoyed by the workout/exercising/dieting monologue i've adopted since joining the gym. but hey, as of now, my life revolves around the gym so there isnt reli anything else that i can write about. so those who dont wanna read up on my gym excursions, you're welcomed to skim read. or just stop reading my blog until puasa starts coz thats when i'll stop going to the gym.

oh, i've been assigned by my aunt to help out my cousins man this booth in SYSHHB where we basically sell cool trinkets and science-y stuff. because of this new commitment, i cant reli afford long workout sessions =(

okay. correction. it was only today that i cudnt get a proper workout done because it was the launching of the fair (where one of the booth is ours) at SYSHHB hence i had to leave the gym early for the booth duty. so today's workout was quite dissapointing, only 20mins on the treadmill and another 20 on weights. definitely will make up for it tomoro. anyway, SYSHHB is basically where i'll be all day long excpet for mornings (gym time. duuh~). i even have lunch there. sad, i know.

im losing a bit more weight tho.

im actually worried abt this because this might mean i'm losing muscle mass (altho i hope its my fat mass). i cant say its because of this whole obsession with the gym because despite exercising more than i did in the uk, i also eat more here. and when i say i eat more, i mean i really do. and its not just extra portions, its the stuff i eat. obviously i dont go as far as McDs or KFC (i hate fast food! im not being a snob but after watching Super-Size Me, i've totally lost my cravings for cheese burgers and fries. but hey, i still love donuts) but i do eat more deep fried stuff and i've been indulging my sweet tooth more than usual.

hmm. mental note to self: consult rose on this matter!

on non-gym-related issues....

i need to start seeing my friends. and not just by accident. i need to see nav and zah and jidah and wani and effy and rosie and syazwi and tashry and aaaaallll the rest of them. i need to have a healthy transition from boyfren to friends. he starts work next week so no more daily outings. boooo.

i'm getting clingy; yes. the more reason i need to go out with other ppl asap. its this chauffeur duty thats bothering me. boyfren doesnt mind being co-chauffeur but friends are a different matter.. so we'll see.

me wants to see that new batman movie. whats it called. the dark knight. and i'll finish on that random thought.

much loooove,
be'ah xxx

its number 62!

Happy birthday to His Majesty!

and to bf's daddy =) yes, they share the same birthday.

since today's a public holiday, no gyming because it isnt opened. i was really thinking of taking the day off. i mean, gym tutup, apa buleh buat kan? but then my day off is saturday and if i take today off.. then i'd be obliged to workout on saturday and um.. no thanx because fridays and sundays are sessions-with-rose days.

so i had 2 choices; either go to tasek for a jog with my brothers OR finally try out imah's treadmill.

it really took me a looong while to decide on which but i settled on the latter. initial plan was to go to tasek in the morning with imah and my rakyat (aka my brothers) but i fell asleep after subuh and i had to go out to drive one brother to MD coz he was part of the flag waving thing. yes i was out at 5.30 in the morning driving. kinda cool coz there werent any cars. i got to drive in the middle of the road and run a red light. haha. it was liberating altho i only had the guts to do so because there were literally no other cars about.

not cool was that i feel asleep after my drive and woke up at 8.30. too late for a jog at tasek psl panas sudah. so i deferred my tasek jog to patang. buuuut i was bored at home (psl biasa pagi2x ke gym) so i went over to imah's and when i saw the treadmill there it was just like 'i HAVE to get on it!' so i went back home into my sport shoes and back again to imah's just to go on the treadmill. oh, i also convinced imah to join me do some crunches and abs stuff. some pilates i picked up from the gym. basically her living room was momentarily transformed into our own little gym.

my youngest brother (who followed me over to imah's) upon seeing me and imah lie down on the floor said 'kaka kan buat yogurt kah?'

kids. they never fail to make u laugh. just in case u guys didnt get it, he meant yoga.

baik jua imah's hse is just 2 doors away from mine. so i now have my endorphins fix =D

now to think of what activity to do with my brothers later. they've been cooped up at home so i need to get them out pronto. one brother wants to 'lepak'. aii bulih at 11yrs old he wants to lepak! but at least he wants to lepak with his big sis so no harm really. then another brother wants to go to mum's bakery. and another wants to 'chill'. ngalih melayan adik-adik anie nyamu. but driver is coming back tonite which will leave me free from my chauffeur obligations. this means no more late lunches out! YAYY!

(i hope my dad lets me get off the driving bit. he'll most probably leave me continue drive my brothers around just because im free all summer. ick. but then its negotiable so wish me luck!)

anyhoo, i was browsing thru the proggramme book yg our parents bawa balik from istana. i always love looking thru the pictures psl i love looking at the royal family's outfits and jewelery. the women specifically la but also the little kids. and sarah's baju lawaaaaaa. but aku buat baju raya ku sudah so i cant copy. haha and yes i am blatantly saying that i WANT to copy that baju's style. psl lawa. hey, best form of flattery is imitation no? as long as it doesnt get annoying la. so maybe for next year's raya outfit. but seriously, she's flourished from school-girl to princess with such effortless style. haiii rezeki sorang2x~

krg mlm ali bawa mkn d fleur de lys. tapi ia buruk psl ia nda lanja. so gelato tonite if i dont stuff myself with the yummy cakes there. at least i got my endorphins fix sudah. hee.

much love,
be'ah xxx

the diet

what diet? haha ive been eating out loads since coming back and needless to say, the Special K has been taking a backseat. i've been indulging in sushi, lobster, milkshakes and buttermilk chicken (padahal anie dpt buat sendiri huhu).

saturday nite i had sushi for dinner for what seems aages ago. thanx ka alin psl lanja. alicakes was a no-show and now he wants to make up for it BUT bayar sendiri. apa nie. boo~

skali ka alin invited us over to her place where we had strawberry flan and the yummiest cookies ever! pakal sja kanyang wah kalau nda i'd have a second cookie. so with all these huge guilt trips (for me, at least), the only way i knw to make up for it is extra time in the gym. so tdi i was on the cycling thingy reading a mag where i read that putting in extra time at the gym does not help lose that giormous extra portion of rice u had.

such a killer. somehow i knew that instinctively but then now its there printed in black and white. sigh. but i still gotta maintain exercising so yea. ive been going to the gym later than usual tho coz of my late nights out. aaand tomoro the gym will be closed psl HM's birthday. so maybe i'll take my adiks to tasek.

i shud take the day off kali but even at this moment im waiting for the bf to pick me up coz we have a lunch date at swenson with the Sulia girls. swenson means ice cream.

oh well. might as well enjoy it while i can. nanti when my metabolic rate is super slow i reli cant afford to enjoy ice cream like now.

toodles.


edited:
just got back from swensons! again, gigartuan portions hee. didnt have ice cream in the end coz i was chock full of milkshake BUT cits brought her famous yummy cupcakes (red velvet!) and i had 2 of them. actually there was one for each of us but i demolished the bf's cupcake since he doesnt like cheese. maan now im even more motivated to sleep over at mamacits.

much love,
be'ah xxx

Matahari and Summer Breeze

were the names of our drinks.

we had the obligatory dinner of celebrating our relationship; this time it was for 2yrs and 6mths of being together. mind you, being in a long-distance relationship and his work not being a typical 9 to 5 commitment, we rarely get to spend time together on the important day itself.

actually, ystrdy wasnt even the day itself. but he's going to Miri today with his brother (who's getting engaged tomorrow so congratulations are due to him too) so we decided to celebrate a day earlier. so yea, the actual official day of 2yrs 6mths is today.

thank you for the wonderful food, amazing time and ecetera ecetera that i cant mention here lest this post gets wayy personal. hee.

for being the most understandingest and patient boyfriend and for being such a good listener.

oh, and for being handsome too. pasal kalau u nda handsome, me nda sayang you =p

hehe i kid. i love u always.

on the gyming front (haha talk abt a spoiler for the perfect anniversary message)..

i finally had my first session with rose ystrdy and man, i take back what i said abt Sherwin in the last post. behind rose's innocent smile and petite frame lies an uber-strict trainer. she made me do weights and im still aching today. weights was followed by pilates which again, she dedicated 45mins of it on abs. i better have my flat abs by next mth at this rate! humph.

so today is my day off at the gym. normally i'd still drag myself out of bed despite being out late last nite and what with the ginormous food portions i had aaaand i had lobster. nyaamaaan berabis. so with that huge guilt trip i'd be on the treadmill asap the next morning aka today BUT rose told me to take the day off. usually such things dont bother me but then she added the killer; "have the day off on saturday and sunday we'll do another session on weights.' so yes. i'm being a good girl and staying away from the gym today (i actually have half a mind to go to the gym this afternoon instead. still thinking abt it now haha). its official now. fridays and sundays are my weights day.

one good thing abt not going to the gym today is that i FINALLY get to sleep in late. siuk rupanya bangun akhir aniee. haha altho i woke up at half past 8 today plg. but thats reli late compared to being up at half past six everyday just to get to the gym on time. so yea. im trynna 'chillax'.

im a bit clueless as to what to do this morning plg hence im blogging at this most unusual time. maybe theres something good on tv...

much love,
be'ah xxx

heads up

spinning class was TORTURE yesterday. i had a bike directly in front of the instructor so i cudnt cheat out of the little moves. it didnt help that he was a tad over-enthusiastic and kept screaming 'EYES ON ME! FOLLOW ME!'

aii gila. Sherwin (the instructor) even talked to me cause he noticed i was new. hence extra attention on me and therefore no way out of cheating myself out of a 'U-TURN!', 'SLIDE!' or 'L-SHAPE!', as he repetitively screamed out the moves. he even threatened to check my bike resistance.

sigh. talk about dedication. thank god he's not my personal trainer. nda cali tu if i have one-on-one sessions with him. im sure he's good, but definitely not for me. i want someone who can be sarcastic and cynical and yet human. not some overly hyper forever smiling endorphins-pumped dude.

okay, that was mean. but im still sore from the class. i dont knw if i'll be joining next week's class. i also discovered a egg-sized bruise on my right knee. i cant say for sure i got it from the spinning class, but it was definitely not there when i left for the gym ystrdy morning.

after nearly collapsing from the spin class (which promised to burn 800 calories in 45mins. i checked) there was no way i was gonna get on the elliptical machine. but michelle's yoga class was on so i went breathing in positive energy and exhaling the negative. kinda helped. until i discovered the bruise.

needless to say, ystrdy's workout was one of the toughest ones i've had to endure since coming back this summer. and ive only been back for 2weeks.

today was yoga with william which is always fun because, like ka alin said, he is an ah-may-zing yoga teacher. i finally got to do the headstand today =) me being me, i was squealing ever so slightly when he dropped my foot but he stayed close to make sure i maintain balance. oh, i just had a funny joke cross my mind. today, i actually used my head. harhar. okay not funny. but it was funny when it crossed my mind.

atu random. anyhoo, before william's class was steps with rose. i was the only one in the class so it was a one-on-one. plus she happens to be my personal trainer and again she worked me hard. i didnt do any weights with her today tho, she said we'll do weights tomoro. and pilates.

the thing abt pilates tho (the pilates with rose la) is that i like the fact that most of it is done lying down. what i dont like abt it is that my whole body will be aching despite the lying down. i guess she focuses on the upper body. exactly what i need plg. nyeh.

i am seriously in need of a massage. thank god my brother mau urut kaka nya. but he's not exactly the best masseuse and i want a proper massage with the lights and the scented candles and aroma therapy oil and whatnot. me wants to check out that new thann sanctuary spa in kiulap. i went for a foot reflexology with the other half hariatu and maaan, it was good. imagine how the body massage must feel like! and we got a tour of the spa too. mucho nice.

oh, i finally sent in my kain to the tailor. whoopeeee finally new baju raya =D

aaaand mamacits is back by now! i tink. shud be. i'm thinking of when its best to attack her house. obviously i'll be bringing my brothers with me unless i go over her place while they're at school. hmmm... cant wait for cake! hehe

much love,
be'ah xxx

p/s celebrating 2yrs6mths tomorrow. labius~

Getting Personal

i got a text from rose today.

'we'll start training on thursday at 10am. c u!'

yikes. i have a steps class at 8 and yoga at 9 thurdays. now i have another session with the trainer herself. one on one.

and she knows i have 2 classes that day bcoz she's giving the steps class herself.

better step up my game tomorrow then. been lazy on the treadmill. tomorrow its the elliptical machine. such a fancy word, ey? just learnt it kemarin pulang. its this machine



kinda like the treadmill. but its still a change so i should be all pumped up for it. thats if i dont collapse after tomorrow's spinning class.

gee, my posts are getting more and more exercise-holic.

mamaaacittsss me wants u back with cakes and goodies!!!

dont knw why i've been craving for sugar lately. donuts and peanut butter and whatnots. been having cake too. ystrdy had the mud pie slice from fleur de lys which was jumbo but thank god i didnt finish it. the boyfren and me have a deal tho; if i dont finish my food (which is often lately, what with portion-control freak moi) i have to pay for the meal. so now either i tapau leftovers (which is usually abt two thirds of what i ordered hee) or i shove everything in my mouth and ignore my jeans' cutting into my not-yet-flat tum.

but seriously, restaurant portions are HUGE in brunei. u know one portion is only the size of ur cupped hands? i managed to finished 2 slices of bruschettas plg tdi. psl it was yummy. harhar.

me cant wait for toned arms. my muscle mass is seriously buruk. i need to invest in weights. the nike ones are lawa but too lightweight. but maybe thats just what i need for while watching tv. antah.

pokoknya i want mamacits to pamper me. she hasnt pampered me in eons. mantang2x aku basar sudah =p i am waiting for ur return cits!

much love,
be'ah xxx

Weekend

Saturday


our rides. guess which one's whose.

Sunday





Monday



handsome eh sayangku atu. anyway, i didnt do any spinning ystrdy psl i was the only one. the instructor was a boy so i maluuu if only saya seorang in spinning class!

so i did 20mins (covered 4km! shudve rounded it off to 30mins but nyeh) on the treadmill, 15mins on the bike and 30mins of yoga.

oh, and the spinning class's promise was 'burn 800calories in 45mins'. banyak kan? will definitely go to the weds class coz the aunties will be there. today i managed to go to the belly dancing class. siukness! will definitely be going for that every week now. then saturday night ka alin bawa sushi. yayness~ therefore im seeing the berlin gang then. anyhoo, as usual every lunch time duty antar ambil my brothers sekolah. so i pretty much cant do sushi for lunch, hence going for it at night. baah atu saja ah. everyone be good.

much love,
be'ah xxx

firsts

kemarin i did aerobics to dangdut. ai gila melakat yow lagu atu dlm kepala.

neverr again. i'll stick to micheal jackson and cristina aguilera, thank you very much.

anyhoo, today i had my first ever donut from brunei, specifically from la donuts. issit la donuts or L.A donuts? whichever. pokoknya yg d gdg atu la. it was dissapointing but then what did i expect after being spoilt with krispy kreme every other month?

i had about 5 donuts today. total diet kill obviously. padahal nda nyaman tu. tapi masuk jua dlm mulut just because its there. to top that off, i only ran a measly 33mins on the treadmill this morning. it was a 4km run plg which explains the odd number coz i was trynna round the distance off. then i went off to do a bit of yoga but i was too lazy to do my routine so i was basically just looking into the studio mirror admiring how pretty i look doing the difficult yoga poses. haha. baik jua sorang dlm studio atu. but cmon, there were big mirrors on all four walls, shapa jua kan nda vain?

back to the donuts, i have to admit the oreo donut was the yummiest. maybe bcoz krispy kreme dont make oreo donuts? oh wait! but its dreamcake donut beats everything else. haha. this post is so random. oh, i had kway teow for lunch. finally. next food crave is sambal pusu. my mum's not around so i obviously gotta find sambal pusu outside the home.

mmbah. this post is getting weird. summary of today is crappy workout with killer sugar overload diet. so tomoro its spinning class. i've been avoiding spinning psl the bike makes my derriere ache. but after today i tink i need to. skali the class's promise is quite tempting too : 'burn 600 calories in 45 mins!' or sumthing like that. pokoknya its a lot of calories. and i also remember a plate of mee goreng is 100 calories. well someone told me. antah banar kah nda. i dont reli count calories so watevs.

basically tomorrow is doomsday bekos i will be slaving away at the gym to burn off the donuts i had today.

wish me luck!

much love,
be'ah xxx

of ups and downs

selalunya i prefer not to go to the gym on fridays pasal govt officers have their day off which would mean the gym will be crammed with ppl doing away the week's kway teow or mee mamak.

tapi kelmarin i went to the gym jua. i told myself if i wake at at 8 then i will go to the gym but if i dont, then nda la. skali i woke up at 8am on the dot without an alarm.

becoz of promise to thyself, i was obliged to go to the gym.

thank god fitness zone now has the kiulap branch. i went to my usual gym at the mall and lo and behold, they were a few more ppl than usual but my favourite treadmill was free! i tink i am seriously getting obsessed with this exercise bit bcoz i actually jogged to wake myself up. there i was all sleepy and yes, reluctant to go to the gym so another mental promise to myself, 'if i do good at the gym, i can have cake tonite'. somehow the thought of cake spurred me on to jog.. for just abt 12 minutes hehe.

my jogging time on the treadmill is getting crappier plg. i've been coming later than usual and theres always a class that i wanna join hence shorter jogging time. ystrdy i joined a pilates class given by my trainer rose and she dedicated a full 45minutes on abs sculpting alone! no words can do justice for the pain i felt in my lower abs kelmarin. i felt like my stomach was on fire. suffice to say that after the pilates workout, i definitely deserved to have cake that night!

then comes the dilemma of 'where to have cake?'. i usually have my cake fixes at solitude but nada lgi at the mall and i'm not bothered to go all the way to bandar just for cake. read: not that desperate for cake. sekali that night (ie last night) me, boyfren and my adik went to watch hancock and after that had cake at coffee bean. so i finally got my cake fix. actually i didnt even finish my chicago cheesecake and the boyfriend didnt finish his fudge cake either.. and i have the leftovers safely tucked away in the fridge! hehe so i'm gonna demolish that later after me aerobics class kali. but im still craving for proper cake. maybe i mean home-made cake. the ones arah solitude are always yummylicious. citsss i want ur caaaaaakes balik tah!!

oh yes, i didnt go to the gym this morning. akhir balik semlm punya psl and yes, magically i woke up at 8am jua today but i cudnt be bothered to drag myself out of bed knowing i have an aerobics class this afternoon. i got a call from my aunt kelmarin kan bawa aerobics so no morning workout session, afternoon workout sja lah. asal ada. plus i think i injured my right shoulder. its a bit sore. mula2x eksen nie kan rajin, ke gym pagi and also aerobics ptg. imagine all the calories i cud burn! i made another promise to myself actually (yes mesti banyak promises for motivation waah). which is if my weight went up (since i had cake and a late dinner last night) this morning i will drag my sorry ass out of bed. but thankfully i havent gained an ounce so i seeked solace under the comfort of my duvet once again. now im just whiling away time until i have to pick up my brothers from school.

speaking of which, u knw how in the last post i wrote i never wanna be late to pick up my brothers? oh the irony of the statement! at the time i was writing it, a brother was waiting for me to pick him up.. and i forgot! i only picked him up one and a half hr later =s baik jua my brother didnt cry/marah and he had company. he actually managed to joke abt it. but i feel so guilty abt it that tomoro im bringing him out jalan2x.

u knw, i think its not just my right shoulder thats sore. my lower abs are sore jua. nyeh. i need a body massage. mesti tunggu my mummy plg so she can pay for it hehe. i gots another 30mins till i go pick up them brothers. i think im gonna have a lie-in. ta!

much love,
be'ah xxx

saja

the one on the left is Si Cinta.

its been a while since i posted up his picture bah.

handsome kaaaaaaan? hehe

much love,
be'ah xxx

sekali

i am knackered. i've been going to the gym every morning at 7 and i am absolutely pooped! kemarin i slept balik after subuh and woke up at half past 8, just on time to change and drive over to the gym for my 9 o'clock yoga class.

why am i pushing myself? antaah nyamoo.. padahal jetlag masih nie. and its not like i get enough sleep as it is. since i'm designated driver, i dont dare take afternoon naps psl i dont want to pick up the brothers akhir. i remember i hate being picked up late so as a driver i vow to always be on time la. kalau not on time pun, at least 5mins late. anyhoo.. today i finally got a bit of a shut-eye for an hr since i didnt go out with the boyfren today. but i tink im more knackered than everr now.

so hows my workout been so far? so far so good! i can actually run on the treadmill now. and proper jog. dulu i'd just be brisk walking on the treadmill. aii gila now when i think back i realise i was so buruk fitness-wise. i've met all the aunties i use to do steps with and they all went 'haiya this girl so kurus! u need meat here! *one aunt slaps me on the bum*'

okay.. sudah ku kurus suruh lampuh balik kali?

i also finally met rose who's gonna be my trainer this time. she commented the same about my weight. she said she expected me to gain more going to the uk so she was surprised to see me lose weight. hah! anyhoo, we talked a bit abt wat workout she's gonna be giving me and i told her i wanna lose 1.5 more kilos and she looked at me like i was crazy. maybe coz i wore last year's gym clothes. last year they fit me like second skin but now they kinda hang. so i guess i kinda look skinny if not slim to her. anywayy, she said she's just gonna give me weights and stuff to tone up becoz apparently, i am jelly-like all over. kurang asam punya trainer! but weights me likey anyway coz it boosts metabolism so it means i can eat more but not gain an ounce! wheee~

but i guess i gotta stop losing weight then. its all toning up from here. me brother has a bar on his door for them to do chin ups and i wanna be able to do one chin-up b4 puasa. antah possible kah nda tu. i can lift myself up 2 inches plg. so we'll see.

oh and i went onto this tanita thingy. its this machine u step on and they put in ur height and all these numbers come whizzing out like my BMI, fat mass and bad fat and good fat and all the likes. my fat level is now under fitness. woo hoo! oh speaking of which, theres a brunei half marathon sometime in august.. i'm contemplating of joining but then its 21km.. pengsan ku krg! altho i knw i can train for that sort of length plg. but then nisa runs loads but she hasnt ran 21km.. right nisa? so i dont knw. shud i or shud i not? i want to! i need a marathon partner! cits?

bah i knw i prolly bored most of u with all the health facts but i do knw some are fascinated coz i knw i got a couple of fitness-frenzied friends. anyhoo, rose said after two weeks time we'll check my numbers on the tanita majigy again and see how much i've progressed. cant wait! also becoz in 2weeks time my driver will be back from indon thus leaving me free of the hassle of picking up brothers.

bye bye all!

much love,
be'ah xxx

p/s me very much likey all the 'rabz u lost weight!' comments. okay maybe i sound narcissistic but i never thought i'd be a success story. so if i can do it, you can do it too!! so keep em'(the compliments i mean) coming people!