"you know you've made it big when people you don't know hate you."

"inside some of us is a thin person struggling to get out, but they can usually be sedated with a few pieces of chocolate cake."
- Anonymous

"Weight management has to be an uncompromising, non-negotiable, everyday thing, like brushing your teeth"
Linda Spangle, 100 Days of Weight Loss

Friday, September 18, 2009

Ramadhan so far

a post in bullet points only means one thing.

i. am. lazy.

=p

on the contrary, methinks it makes me stay on point. so.. a summary of my last month so far as follows.. and definitely NOT in order.

- had my very first job interview. dont know if i got the job.. (tho from the looks of it i didnt..) which wasnt quite the experience that i thought it shud be. which is just as well i guess. maybe not my rezeki. (or theirs, since they'll be missing out on an amazingly talented individual such as myself LOL)

- went over to boyfriend's house for the 2nd time. this time i am definitely positively say they like me =p

- only went out for sungkai twice.. but its a fine number for me.. lgi siuk terawih!

- terawih 20 rakaat does make me lose weight! coolbeans kan?

- when i sungkai out i tend to eat less. kenapa ya kan tu? control mkn depan boyfren kali? hahaha yaarright.

- i am slowly driving the rexton again. sucks that i cant go fast on it tho.

- realised that i have the guts to do 170km/h on the highway.

- missed out on mamacits' creme brulee!

anyhoots~ will leave the juicy tidbits for face to face encounters. raya's around the corner so will definitely see everyone (or most of everyone) so yayy!! also, gym membership unfreezes on the 23rd.. back to the gym then! cause im starting to get bingo wings! ick!

enjoy the last few days of ramadhan.

much love,
be'ah xoxo

Thursday, September 10, 2009

dear ka alin, huda and ali

*waves to my only three readers*

because of this blog, i no longer have the satisfaction of telling a story bcause these 3 ppl go 'oh sudah kami baca blog mu'.

aku cerita pun, suruh dorang pretend they dont knw but its just not the same bah. i tried lastnite and they kept finishing my sentences.. or ali and huda did. so mcm, bah jgntah ku becerita naaaah.

tapi kalau boyfren ku siuk. walaupun ia sudah baca sini he still listens to my stories. yatah bisaikan boyfren ku atu.

anyway, thank u so much kaka alin for making my dreams come true ie i FINALLY got to eat lobster and to ali no u are not fat and to huda remember me always, esp when u hear the jai ho song =p



i miss random posts like these.

much love,
be'ah xoxo

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Meet The Parents

i finally did it! =D

i have been meticulously avoiding such an event because i am

a) shy
b) not ready
c) too nervous to function
d) all of the above

after 3 years (going on 4 next january) of being together, and him insisting i meet his parents after i graduate.. well, it was inevitable. his family had a sungkai function on thrusday night, so not only was i gonna meet the parents, i was gonna meet his grandparents, siblings, sister-in-laws, aunts, uncles, cousins, nephews, neices - basically the whole lot of them!

Because i was still super nervous, i dragged my cousin imah to go with me for support. so much for support tho, she was there just teasing me and enjoying my reactions when ppl look at me etc! =p nadawah mah, u were great and i owe you big time for coming with me.

anyway, i think the first phase of seamlessly fitting in 'as-if-i-was-one-of-them' turned out great. i actually enjoyed myself hee. his aunt who used to study in kent was there, and her children were so happy to see me that i betchu it put me in the good books of the women there haha. kirakan pandai melayan kanak2x la tu~

Also, i got on extremely well with his 2 sister-in-laws, and his sisters too. the brothers liat2x la sja haha but then i didnt reli knw wat to say to them. nobody asked me 20qs which is why i think i'm fine.

oh, and most importantly, the dad smiled at me! i have always been forever scared sh*tless (pardon my french) of him but he was the first one to greet me as i entered the house and he was just sooo friendly! i guess u cant judge a book by its cover. next came his youngest sister whoe demurely salaamed me and imah (but as the night wore on i discovered shes not as demure as she acts. read: quite wacky hehe) and then his sister-in-law, carrying her son on her hip and immediately teased me bcoz she knew how nervous i was. and in one of the many times the mum came up to me to make sure i am eating etc, she referred herself as 'babu' to me. i wudnt have believed it but for imah who was there and confirmed it!

in conclusion, (because theres no point in going into detail, this post is purely for me), i think i got the green light =)

moving on.

my weight went up early this week, making me a bit panicky. i mean, i was fasting so how was it that i gained? granted, i've been eating double chocolate brownies from pipops and cupcakes from cits.. so i decided to up my discipline in portion control and reli reli reli stick to my portions. it worked and this week i'm back to my previous hee. i tink the weight gain was a false alarm kali but then if i let it be, krg another point 5 kilo until jadi 5 kilos.

speaking of goodies, next week i planned to sleepover at the land of yummy food ie cits. i shall do my best not to think of my weight while im there.. i can always work it off anyway.

on a totally unrelated post, i have picked up all my baju raya and am ready for raya! oh wait.. sans shoes. but ppl who had their boxes pick up in june have already had theirs arrived so im thinking my boxes will arrive within the first 2 weeks of raya. in any case, i dont think i'm gonna buy more shoes.. there is one pair that will suffice until my box of shoes come.

till the next post, assalamu'alaikum.

much love,
be'ah xoxo

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

irrelevant post

theres a lot i need to clean up around here.

and i am not looking forward to the clean-up =/

also, my weight has been yo-yo ing, so i am not very happy when i step on the scales. i tink i need to give it a rest. its puasa, theres a whole load of other stuff i shud be thinking about and doing something about other than my weight.

my bajus for raya will be done sometime this week, which cheers me up a bit. i went for another fitting on monday and tried on my 3rd baju (from the kain i was supposedly just to cuci mata from) and maaang.. its gaw-jus. hee. also, i am super hairan why my weight is slowly creeping up but my baju size seems to be going down. like how i cud fit into size 4 at 1kg heavier than when i was a size 6. and also how my baju raya keeps needing to be altered despite another slight weight increase.

maybe my bones are getting heavier? lol. have been drinking anlene as of late. tapi its suppose to make bones stronger, not heavier.. or maybe the two go together.. hmm..

i have another full day of errands to do today. cant believe its already september! tengok anak bulan is on the 19th.. and lastnite there was already a significant decrease in jemaah terawih.. which usually happens mid-ramadhan bcoz ladies will be busy baking cookies and cakes for raya.

speaking of which, i miss baking. if only my oven worked. there is still a sleepover at mamacits' to be done but when im there, its easier to just let her do all the baking.. after all, she's the one who introduced baking to me back when we were 7 hehe.

bah gonna get try get another 40 winks before i start my day. assalamu'alaikum!

much love,
be'ah xoxo