"cinta dan keinginan untuk memiliki adalah berbeza"
its really late but i just finished the movie and just had to share it. this movie is right up there on par with the notebook (altho i personally don't like it), a walk to remember, the atonement but BETTER because this movie hits closer to home!
will say more about it soon. be good and keep up the essay writing people!
much love, be'ah xxx
p/s special mention to rosiekins and ya nurul 'izzah for recommending the movie. love yous both
why dont they make cartoons like that anymore? cartoons nowadays are just overrated and most are just pointless. like the one atiq mentioned bobobobobobo..
apparently thats the name of the cartoon. and in it, ada a kid wrestler who's strength is pakai bulu idung. sayy whaat?
anyhoo, im just bitter because cartoons of my childhood aren't as good as they were dulu. just look how 'my little ponies' have become. overrated is an understatement.
on another point of contention - i need constant reminding that there's more to life than material things. at times, i think i'm pretty well grounded in terms of being materialistic but on another level, i know i can do better. i should stop wishing for better things and just work for something i want badly. just giving myself a good shake for me to realise that i have it pretty good but there's still room for improvement. live within my own means. dunia jua, but akhirat jangan lupa.
see, thats a varied post for u, from cartoons to akhirat. hehe.
back to my own comfy pace though (and a less serious note), i think i WILL go to ashford. i do need new jeans and a designer outlet that has a motto of 'guilt-free shopping' works for me. i've worked hard from this shopping abstinence and i think its about time to give myself a little something.
okay, if that line of reasoning didnt work, then here's the practical one. i'm a smaller size now and the jeans that do fit me are skinnies.. which i tell u, look obcene on me if i dont wear calf-length boots with. and the weather's getting warmer ie i dont need to wear boots as much. so i do need boot-cut/straight leg/boy-cut/watever-works-for-me jeans. so there u are.
and i dont knw why i need to justify myself here. huhu. but we'll see, i might not find anything i like and end up not buying anything (except maybe millie's cookies). and with the new me, that will probably be true. i'm a bit more fussy now with buying stuff. my closet needs a complete rehaul bcoz theres stuff thats too big, too old and i just plain dont wear anymore. i should sell them on ebay. make money. mwahaha.
speaking of which, i made a spontaneous decision lastnite. i'm going to belfast in about 3 weeks time. most of my deadlines are around that time, so no change to my essay-writing pace. will finally get to kacau the future sis-in-law and eat dayang nabilah's awesome cooking and everything that i've craved. now that i've mentioned it, i havent told kash the date for my mee jawa all-u-can-eat. hmmm..
food food oh food. i love food so much its impossible for me to be skinny. but weight-loss plan still going accordingly. insyaAllah come summer, i'll be at my ideal weight. need to keep up with the yoga and portion-control my meals, and i'm all set! and yea, i dont believe in diets. i cant NOT eat what i want. so i eat wat i want, but in moderation. makes me happier than making myself eat rabbit food. see jirin, take note! =p altho ur losing weight faster than i am. which i admit, saya jeles.
anyhoo, to babu who's reading this, yes i am doing my essays and no, i'm not putting it off. just balancing work and play =)
much love, be'ah xxx
p/s the grasshopper's laugh macam barney's huhu. suaranya pun bah. haha
never did i in my 21 years of life EVER thought to hesitate in answering such a question!
is this the new incarnation of the former thrift-spending rabz?
i was at jirin's today and was talking to muni who told me she's planning to go to ashford sometime next week. i asked her when.
"wednesday." she answered.
"but i have football on wednesday!" i said, believe it or not.
muni gave me A LOOK. i asked 'why not go during the weekend?"
another LOOK from muni.
the penny dropped.
"WHY THE HELL AM I ASKING THAT? SHOPPING AND FOOTBALL??" i literally threw my hands in exclamation and thought since WHEN was choosing football over shopping EVER a choice FOR ME??
it was just so absurd. if someone had asked me that question 2 mths back i would have (take note ali. its would HAVE, not would OF) said 'shopping' automatically. it was instinctive, it was automatic, in was in my programme, it was shopping for goodness sake.
but somehow, the wires in my brain have been rewired by the love of running after a ball, kicking people's shins and getting the silly ball into the goalpost.
i dont know whether to jump for joy or weep in horror. sarah and effy who tried so hard to make me play basketball would probably think i've gone koo-koo. ditto my girlfrens and buyai. and the selah boys. they probably think i've been kidnapped by aliens and the one on earth is a clone.
one thing's for sure, my mum and boyfren are definitely sighing with relief at this. save duit buii~~
i know in brunei we celebrate it in may, but here in the uk, its today.
for letting me play with ur lipstick as a toddler. for forgiving me for losing ur expensive earrings in school. for letting me have the better kain raya. for sharing my secret about how i exactly crashed the car.
thank you. for always being there, and making me as i am today.
i can go on forever about the things u've done for me - the least i can do for u is to make u proud. and i'm doing my best.
i just found out to be a lawyer you don't need a law degree.
SAYYY WHAAAT?
oh well. bukannya cita2x saya kan jadi lowyar jua. huhu. taking things as it comes, thats me. but then whats the law degree doing as a course in uni?
buat conversion course cukup apparently. hmmph.
finished my property assessment 3. hurray! now 3 more essays to go till term ends. something to look forward to sementara tunggu allowance haha. sarcasm intended.
much love, be'ah xxx
p/s dave archuleta singing that john lennon number was HOT! he looked older too, which works for me. dont knw if it worked for some people.... =p
especially for babu, here's the ulek mayang video. any complaints about the footage, go to reza. reza to yg video huhu.
oh, and guess which one is me. i think this video is clearer than last year's zapin pulang. enjoy! =D
p/s i was doing yoga tdi and u knw how in some poses i had to take a good look at my toes? skali i realised my toenails are bida. huhu AI NEEYD AY PEYDIKIUR! tapi sini mahal. haha and i make it sound so bad. no, my toenails are lawa. haha but they're in need of some TLC.
i always look forward to wednesdays bcoz of 2 things. one, i have no classes watsoever on wednesdays and two, theres football. im not turning into one of those sigau girls yg gila football, not even those girls yg gila football and knw every rule in the gamebook. i just love playing psl i love exercising. and running around the pitch and kicking shins (i tend to kick ppl's shins rather than the ball) is very satisfying.
tapi today theres no football bcoz we couldnt get the small hall at the gym like we usually get every week. so im deprived of the one intense workout i get weekly! so now i have two choices, either jog or do yoga. the weather's been mighty fine lately but jogging takes too much of my time. i've already got all my assignments for this term so i cant reli afford to go jogging. the jogging part is skajap actually, its the whole hanging out at jirin's or apip's that i cant afford to do and thats what usually happens after a jog. so then i'd do yoga. i need to keep them muscles stretched and toned anyway. huh altho to be honest, i actually need to add more advanced poses into my routine coz the ones im doing is getting quite easy for me, but im too malas to check out new poses. i'll do that when i get home for summer and let rose do that. she's paid to give me new poses anyway hehe.
speaking of which, my mummy's started doing yoga. good for u, bu! keep it up and then nanti we can go to classes togetherr. but then i dont knw how to fit that into summer. i'm planning to do that 2 week attachment thing come summer, but my dad's saying 2 weeks ia macam alang2x and i mite as well rehat d rumah or go to spore and lawat my babu. huhu but still, 2 weeks atu would open me up to how an office works, seeing how i've NEVER done an attahcment in my entire life. i've done loads of volunteer work mind u, and i've been involved in lots of organisations, but its never things that i'd get paid to do. if u get wat i mean. so anyhoo, i needed help w/ the attachment borang and i went over to apip's. i havent spent time with apip in eons. sejak ia buat MA anie, she's got no time for meh. huhu. anyhoo, the plan was to go to the park and feed the ducks, have a little break from our essays. i wanted to bring her to town coz i needed to buy some stuff but she said nda mau. haha maklum la, bulan tua, kan nazak sudah bulan, kan d bawa ke town? me and apip together to town is a no no.
so i went to her place after i got my stuff. skali sudah d rumahnya she was like 'i've changed my mind! lets go to town!" (yes im dramatizing it a bit but it went along those lines la haha) so us shopping buddies went to town and did our usually bit of window shopping and trying on clothes that we cudnt afford but just to see how we look like in gorgeous sexy clothes lol. haha i almost bought a kate moss top from topshop, plus it was on sale. but i knew i didnt need it so i was nitpicking trying to find something wrong with it and i found a loose thread which a pulled and the beads came out! so that was good psl then i didnt have to buy the top. i knew i didnt need it anyway. see, im getting good at avoiding buying stuff! i need to save up for berlin anyway. but then cobaan besar came when we stepped into zara. most of u knw im a big zara fan, and ada this t-shirt lawaaa which says 'i'm the princess of your dreams' huhu and org2x tertentu will understand. so we did our usually bit and tried out several tops and i tell u, i ALMOST bought the t-shirt, but somehow a voice in my head was saying 'u dont reli need that do u?' so i appeased my shopping goddess that come allowance day, if its meant to be, the t-shirt will still be there in my size and then i will get it. kalau nada, bukan tah jodoh ku tu with the baju. but guess who got a top? miss afifah herself. huh. i tell u we are baad influences for eachother.
after that, went to her house for dinner and then balik, where the guys came over. some funny stuff going on haha which i do not want to elaborate. i woke up late this morning =s only woke up bcoz dave rang the doorbell. i havent woken up this late since i was damam lastweek. oh well, at least i've got most of my reading done for property. the aim is the get another 400words done tonite and im done. sarah's bday celebration is tonite. got her a present. cant wait to see them agen. abh atu sja, need to go yoga now. krg lampuh balik. haha apakan. oh yea, i forgot to mention. i dropped a dress size. wheeeee~
contradictory. loves to shop but loathes spending the money. loves to drive fast but detests reckless drivers. i am a powerpuff girl, without the chemical X.
