"you know you've made it big when people you don't know hate you."

"inside some of us is a thin person struggling to get out, but they can usually be sedated with a few pieces of chocolate cake."
- Anonymous

"Weight management has to be an uncompromising, non-negotiable, everyday thing, like brushing your teeth"
Linda Spangle, 100 Days of Weight Loss

Sunday, September 28, 2008

more and more cupcakes (and cookies)

and you guys think i cant possibly get any more cupcakes right? or that i should actually have enough of them?

here's the thing. i spent my last 2 nights over at my mamacits. sleepovers at her place always equals food overload but this time, with her reputation as cupcake maker extraordinaire and busy baking to meet clients' orders.. its now cupcake overload.

because i sleepover, i can do up my cupcakes any way i want. she's got bowlfuls of frosting and i help myself to them. i take a chocolate cupcake and pile it up with vanilla frosting and peanut butter icing. i take a peanut butter cupcake and add cream cheese icing with oreos. and the list goes on.

such are the possibilities. it was like having my own cupcake bar. and i also got to practise on applying the frosting and of course, having not succeeded and rendering it un-sale-able, i proceed to devour the 'mistake' i made.

of course all this has taken such an all time high of sugar intake in my diet. and i didnt even go to the gym...

but so what? soon i'll be leaving and there wont be anymore citscakes. so im enjoying it while it lasts. in the meantime, yes my weight has gone slightly up (in just TWO DAYS!) but i have a pre-raya workout plan. its intensive yoga and pilates these next two days before hari raya. and i definitely feel sluggish after all the cupcakes i've had. so time to UP to stamina =)

anyhoo, raya is around the corner, so i'd like to wish each and every one of u guys selamat hari raya, maaf zahir dan batin.

much love,
be'ah xoxo <---- pasal aku suka gossipgirl. haha.

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

more cupcakes

as the title suggests.. i bought more cupcakes from mamacits.

i took a nap ystrdy patang and somehow, i had this urge to go check her blog as soon as i woke up. in my groggy state, i typed in her web address skali lo and behold! she's selling extra cupcakes!

my not-fully-awake-self automatically reached for the phone to book one (of only two!!) box of the cupcakes.

and my timing was just right. she just posted the post mere minutes b4 i texted about the extra cupcakes.

nyahahaha. so yea, now i've tried her peanut butter cupcakes. a bit too rich for my liking because the frosting is peanut butter-flavoured but nda ku menyasal membali! she says the peanut butter ones are her best-selling ones yatah i wanted to try. maybe if i didnt exercise so much i wud've liked them even more. so far, my favourite flavour are her smores. super duper yummy!

anyhoo, it hasnt sink in yet that i'm leaving next week. instead, i'm more gearing up for raya. went to the dentist today for my regular check-up and per usual, i asked for a clean-up ie scaling.

dentist: why do u want to clean ur teeth? ur teeth are already so white!
me: really? but i like having my teeth cleaned. plus i'm paranoid about my teeth.
dentist: you dont smoke and you dont drink coffee. yes your teeth are white.
me: but we can still clean my teeth right?
dentist: yes of course. open wide!

haha apakan. i felt like a 5 yr old again when he said 'open wide' atu. but yea, he said my teeth are white! and clean too. and to think i was worried that my teeth were starting to yellow. true that i dont smoke and i avoid coffee when i can, but i love tea and tea stains teeth as much as coffee so the dentist's pronouncement that my teeth are white and clean is such a relief!

thats why i love going to the dentist. no, not the compliments (altho they are, of course, a bonus) but its the professional opinion i get. i also love getting my teeth professionally cleaned. its like, gearing up for hari raya la tu. ppl go for facials, haircuts manis and pedis but for me, its the dentist first!

and yes, i am paranoid abt my teeth, i worry they will fall out when i reach old age (thanx to my constant sugar-high diet) or go yellow on me or a million other reasons. obviously, my concerns are more for vanity's sake than health's sake, but hey, they're interrelated so wahetever makes me jaga my teeth is good with me.

(altho i do hate flossing. lol)

have a good last week of ramadhan everyone. get ur teeth checked!

much love,
be'ah xxxxxxxxx

Monday, September 22, 2008

cupcake day!

i indulged myself today.

i had an overload of sugar attack, courtesy of my mamacits' (increasingly) famous cupcakes.

me hads the smores and the red velvet. yummmyyyy~ skali when i came to pick them up, they were fresh fresh fresh out of the oven and still piping hot and oh-em-gee the smell was just heavenly! and all the frosting she had in big bowls! cream cheese! vanilla! peanut butter!

aaagh.. kalau bukan puasa i wud've licked each and every bowl and spoon.

(haha. mcmtah ia suruh. untuk d jual kali ah cupcakes aah)

anyhoo, i was saying. the smores were absolutely deelish. crumbly and soft and oh so chocolatey and yummy. and the red velvet is an all-time fave. first time in a long time i ate without actually thinking i need to burn off the calories when i next visit the gym. after amani said i am 'tiny like isham', i can afford to put on a few pounds.

hee.

the sugar rush makes me all hyper. too bad mamacits doesnt accept orders anymore. she has her hands full with orders all the way through first week of raya. and she works alone too.

but at least she's earning money. hehe.

yummy yummy smores. i am rambling. but a burden has been lifted off my chest. i found a housemate =)

oh, and the idea of buying a new pink fone makes me all fuzzy. finally a purchase thats practical rather than just based on frivolous impulses.

i sooo LOVE mamacits' smores cupcakes!

much love,
be'ah xxxxxxxxx

tickle me pink

kelmarin i was all mental-y (read: bad mood to the baddest of the worst to high heavens), scolding my brothers left and right for the smallest things and snapping at even the slightest question from anyone who dared approached me with something silly.

all because i cannot find my other phone, which has my uk sim card in it.

it has mysteriously dissapeared from my side table drawer, despite never having been opened since june when i put the phone in there for safety's sake (because nobody opens that drawer.)

but then i started thinking. no sim card means i need to get a new one.

sooooo......

why dont i get a new phone while im at it?
(and this is not me throwing away money. the uk has great deals on sim cards plus phones)

naturally i want a pink one.

but i'm torn between these two.

the sony ericsson w580i


or

the samsung u600 (and it says its exlusive?)


both are priced the same AND they're both just a gorgeous shade of pink, dontcha think? me thinks im more inclined towards the sony one tho... hee =D

how simple it is to make me un-mental.

much love,
be'ah xxxxxxxxxx

p/s i havent gone to the gym for two days...

Friday, September 19, 2008

Proud Mama

guess who i saw ystrdy???

the uber-adorable Hana Banana Munchachakins!!!

i dont have pictures of her. i was too preoccupied and distracted by her adorableness. lol.

i felt like a proud mama when i saw her. she's the cousin who was born in london last year so i got to see loads of her when i babysat for her. and i first saw her when she was just a mere 3 weeks old.. and now she's walking and talking and bouncing. hee. to see her grow from such an itty bitty baby (she was sooo petite as a baby!) into a tall toddler (thank god she got her dad's tall genes and not her mum's/my not-so-tall genes) is tres wonderful!

she wasnt so bouncy ystrdy tho cause she just woke up from a nap.. but she was adorable nevertheless! and she can give flying kisses!! i shud've visited her more often now that we're both in brunei!

u guys prolly dont knw who i'm talking about and all this is gibber jabber to u.. but i've mentioned her wayyyy back when i first saw her. and there were pictures then too. so if u remember that post (which i cant be bothered to link here), put that face in a smiley baby with hair in two braids.

all together now..

'awwwwwwwww kiyyut juaaa!!!'

hehe. apakan. i'm kinda hyper. its the stress i tell u. oh, and i got my hair permed again. curly hair makes me bouncy. lol.

did pilates today. and with a bigger and much heavier exercise ball. i was struggling to keep the huge ball between my legs; sudahtah kaki ku pindik, pakai bula xtra basar lgi tu. but then, rose was teaching and she has short legs too so if she can hold the ball between her legs, then i can too!

talk about a random post. which i believe i havent been doing in a while.

oh oh, one more last thing.

have u guys tried the kueh malaya/apam balik with chocolate chips? it is DIVINE! sugar attack obviously, what with the sugar and susu manis and choc rice and crush nuts but do i care?

no. bekos i got my yoga and pilates. my yogalates. apanyaa.. mcm madonna kan be yogalates.

tis stress i tell u. and ya think ppl who exercise dont suffer from stress hah? if someone can magically conjure a girl housemate for me, only then my stress will dissapear.

much love,
be'ah xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

yoga on empty tummy

feels fab =)

granted, first time i did yoga while fasting, i was knackered out the moment i reached home and took a nap instead of a shower first thing i got back.

(ewww. i knw. all sweaty poo and i tidur first)

but then again, that day i did some runs on the treadmill out of habit's sake. my usual rountine is 30mins elliptical/treadmill, weights then yoga or pilates. so with ramadhan, i have to cut back on my cardio. obviously i was being my usual pushy self, thinking im some sort of wonderwoman who can do the same strenuous rigorous workout without having to eat/drink. mcm apakan aku ah. walaupun gila gym.

so i've lessened my weights reps and running at most is for 5mins. or i brisk walk for 30mins. just enough to get my heart pumping and myself glowing [with sweat] before doing yoga or pilates.

now i know what i can and can't do while fasting so i wont be sprawled on the bed the moment i get home. honestly, if it werent for ramadhan i don't think i'd ever feel so in tune with how my body moves during yoga because i'd be busy guzzling water but now, its like WOW. total rediscovery.

(now i can do the headstand and the Crow better. and i FINALLY can do the vinyasa/crocodile properly!)

i've mentioned before that yoga is supposed to be done on an empty stomache but i've never really heeded that piece of advice because i'd be doing cardio first and i'd need water to keep me going right. but gee, now that i've done yoga like this, its like

'why did i not listen before?'

just shows you really don't know whats good for you till you try it.

sigh. wonders of ramadhan, ey?

only thing i'm worried of is losing my muscle mass what with me cutting out my strength training to almost nil. and my arms were already showing definition!

oh well oh well. puasa comes first, of course. maybe i'm better off with flabby arms anyway. if i have super defined and toned arms kan d apa jua? bukannya org kan meliat. huhu.

that's all for now. i knooow right. time puasa anie pun kan cakap pasal gym. haha.

much love,
be'ah xxxxxxxxxxx

Monday, September 15, 2008

brothers

a recent conversation with my youngest brother:

'ka, abgmali handsome kah?'

'awu la. handsome berabis'

'haha. abgmali kerabau!'

'ah? apakan lai?'

'nda.. abg muaz [brother4] bagitau alai handsome dlm spain kerabau ertinya abgmali kerabau.'

buleeeh ia kana bagitau handsome in spanish is kerabau? on top of that, he believed it because now he doesnt want to call himself handsome, unlike the countless times he would randomly call out 'alai handsome'.

handsome=kerabau. wat next huh?

oh, yoga during ramadhan is fantastic! makes my tummy tighter; or at least i feel like its tighter than norm. will do an extensive post on yoga soon.

much love,
be'ah xxxx