A Couple More Days

until my jam-packed-with-activities-and-fun-filled SUMMER HOLIDAYS!

:D oh gosh i cant keep smiling to myself like orang gila. i kind of feel like i'm already on holiday,just because i enjoy reading and researching this last module, philosophy of law. but i dont knw how i'll do when i sit a 3hr paper for it considering i wont have my books with me. i like reading abt the module.. but i dont knw how i'll feel about retaining stuff in my brain and regurgitating it on paper. oh well, insyaAllah i'll do awesome (mau lagi awesome tu, bukan 'just fine' lol). Bismillahi Tawakkaltu 'Alallah.

anyhoo,i'm now about 2weeks ish from my goal weight! *shriek* another thing to be excited about. antah lately i've been feeling very hyper much. no, actually, these past couple of days have been a sort-of roller coaster ride on feelings but more on that later. but i'm excited because i just got off the scales 10minutes ago and i lost 200g!! haha. sekadar plg but i lost those 200g in 3days. is that good or bad? and i've been meaning to ask adib this question but we cant seem to clash on msn. so adib, if ur reading this -

what should my body fat percentage be for my toned muscles to start showing?

coz lately ive been doing a million sit ups and crunches. actually yes i exagerrated. but seriously, ferdie would be proud of me. there i am in the living room on my yoga mat, heaving and puffing red-faced and doing about 100 crunches. this i dont kid. actually, im bad with numbers. haha pokoknya i do 4 sets of different crunches, each 2x15reps. u do the math. but then again, wats the point of toning up if ive still got flab covering it?

but its all exciting to still be progressing. i just hope i dont do a u-turn in portugal. eh no, im more worried of a relapse (of binge eating) during my mum's visit! wat with her cooking nanti. well, im hoping she cooks. haha coz i tink she's expecting me to cook. we'll make a deal lah nanti. but on the topic of weight-loss, she has been supportive of me. she was the one who paid for my gym membership back during the summer and she wud wake me up to go jogging with her and dad to tasek. i love my mum. hmm.. maybe i can bring her jogging. hee we'll see.

the weather has gone back to being chilly now. im having mixed feelings. i had my first ever usrah on sunday! tres interesting i might say. so do i loathe the chillyness of spring/summer? no, i shudnt! hehe kan keluar tia hyperness ku. but i havent been jogging out anyway coz i have exams. and chilly weather makes me cover up so its easier to be a hijabi at this point. see? Allah tolong~ hehe. i've been feeling numb and all sorts since the usrah.. all teary and hugging housemates. mainly because of guilt and i dont really know where to start this huge change.. so i have ruzanna as my partner =) and remember, this aint pressure, its support. we have to believe in each other. yezzer. we can do this!

and thank you to everyone who has been mucho supportive as of late. be it my weight loss or my hijabi transformation (the the words of ezzah haha). anyhoo, i gotta get cracking on the yoga mat. toodles and assalamu'alaikum!

much love,
be'ah xxx