selamat hari raya

wishing everyone an eid mubarak and maaf zahir dan batin. selamat hari raya to my family, my sayang and my housemates, including bee, who's currently trying to memorise one raya song =) the house is filled with raya songs and everyone's chirpy and happy and the raya feel is slowly sinking in. not the i-wana-cry-and-be-home raya feel but the -im-thankful-for-wat-i-have raya feel.

i've declared today as my public holiday on the basis that its the first day of eid hehe so i didnt go to my lectures today. BUT i did go to my seminar coz attendance is taken.

however, i do miss raya in brunei. im still waiting for my family to call me. i miss the raya lights in brunei..



raya lights~



hehe. bah i wanna be all hyper and prance around the house now. i feel good. haha selamat hari raya again!

much love,
be'ah xxx

wednesday

i dont haf any classes on wedsnesdays. therefore i dont need to go up the uni trail to go to classes and hence i am free to do whatever i want...

i met up with apip today.

so guess what happened? we went shopping like we've never been shopping before! we both reli needed the retail therapy, mind u, so dont judge us. retail therapy works for us!

all i can say is, the new coat, jeans, 2 tops and perfume are money well spent. and we had sungkai at little italy with the guys and yasmin. shes such a sweetheart. very adorable bah, mcm cameron diaz. u scored big, rezzykins. hehe

i feel content. i knw i shudnt be because of such material things, but i tink its a self-esteem boost. after all, after feeling so crappy lastnite, i reli didnt feel guilty at all for shopping so much. yes, i admit that i kinda went overboard today. i gave bee permission to slap me if i shop for the next 2 weeks. because the next 2 weeks will be a no-shopping time zone for rabz.

until the boyfren comes =D

yess, he might come next week. i'm so so sooooo excited! and hari raya's soon too. in 2 days kah? i didnt even realise how soon it is. siuknyaaa hari raya dengan boypreeen.

and i've done m work for tomorrow too. man, im on fire!

haha apakan.

much love, be'ah xxx

kusut

toight i just got hit by this overwhelming feeling all of a sudden.

i was annoyed easily and cudnt do my work. i ate for the sake of eating and i cooked and cleaned w/o any tlc. midn u, we had loads of ppl over and the food was great.

so what was wrong with me?

i have the blueeeeeeeeees.

i miss him.

i have been here sitting on my bed feeling crappy with tissues everywhere hugging rory and being a pathetic fool crying over the times we've spent in brunei.

im such a sappy person.

i want to meet him so badly.

for now, the temp cure is to go shopping.

siiiiiggggggh.

pathetic crappy sappy be'ah is still feeling the blues.

another 2 years (insyaAllah) to go before i graduate. then im gonna hike off and get married. u hear that syg? no excuses.

yes, im the girlfren from hell, the queen control. the watever.





i misssssss yuuuuuuu.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAN!

wishing u all the best in life. gudluck with AS sama jgn kuat mkn ta** hahaha



study smart and join kaka here in uk. skali kami shopping sama2x! and when u get ur license, bersedia jadi driver kaka. kaka tau tu org baru driving iski.

one more thing, kurangkan sikit wawan punya lawyer buruk ah. its getting old.

kaka be'ah xxx

a few things before bed

i just got back from london and i am EXHAUSTED. so why am i still up, caring to even update my blog? becoz i just showered and my hair's wet and i dont wanna use my hairdryer for fear of waking up everyone else and i dont like sleeping with wet hair.

so here i am, waiting until my damp hair becomes less damp. im not waiting for a miracle here. it takes forever for my hair to dry naturally, especially in this weather. so i'll stay up another 30mins or so. theres also the hope that sayang mite be up and get online. i rindu him. its early in brunei tho and he called me tdi dah which was 1 in the morning there so i doubt he'll be up anytime soon. and i dont have the heart to text him bcoz i knw its annoying to be woken up by a text.

so how was my london trip? tiring. but i got to do what i had to do, except jumpa mary bcoz some stuff came up. saw imah's room (bigger than my room in becket court, so its HUGE), stayed at anti tipah's new place for the first time (smaller but cosier. plus they haf stairs now and the girls stay wayyy up in the attic bedroom so going up and down the flight of stairs is good exercise), met up with shuk and huda and paid my zakat. oh yea, one more thing i didnt get to do, get donuts to bawa back to canterbury. apparently they close early on sundays so yea. but i did manage to eat krispy kreme donuts on friday when i first came coz cits and aufa bought some so yea =D ali jeles tu coz i can eat donuts and still maintain my weight. haha.

remember about my vow not to shop? guess wat? i kept my promise!

until today, that is. i managed to not buy anything on friday and saturday but sunday ie today i came home with 1 zara shirt and a set of la senza pjs. my excuse is that theres no la senza in canterbury and that the zara shirt's not available in the canterbury branch. coz u knw how london always has more stuff yea. so in a way i dont feel all that bad coz my shopping's justified. kinda.

saturday i managed to stay out of shopping bcoz i more or less lepaked at home after seeing imah and aleem, bumming in front of the tv. they got sky tv so more channels la hehe. we came across this cartoon called happy tree friends and i dont knw who the producers are but they are sick. the cartoons basically about all these cute lil animals with hearts for noses and they get killed in all these gory disgusting ways. its a cartoon yea but my god its gory. i guess whoever invented it hated cute animals or sumthing. there was so much blood. the cartoon wasnt even 3-d but it was disgusting. look it up on the net abt happy tree friends. that name is so misleading.

on another note, i miss my boyfren. nothing new thre.. but its been 2 mths since i last saw him and well.. i reli miss him. aku jeles psl shuk's in brunei and gets to see him. i hope i can balik in december. or he can come here. whichever la. i just wanna see him.

buuuuuut thats all just hopes and wishes and ish. yea i can handle this whole long distance thing but being able to handle it and doing it for more than a year doesnt make it any easier. but obviously im coping. coz its all for the best kan? coz nanti kami jadi power couple with the happiest most romantic relationship ever and the wife has a million shoes and her own walk-in shoe closet. hehe kan sayang?

my hair is taking forever to dry. and im sleepy. gdnite ppl. 1 week till raya. im still figuring out a good date for our house's open hse. still need to discuss it with the hsemates jua. haiya maaaa~

selamat hari raya ppl. maaf zahir dan batin.

much love,
be'ah xxx

=D

i cudnt find a title that justifies how im feeling right now. i finally finally got my debit card ystrdy (altho no pin number yet) and ali paid me for his law books ystrdy so u can say i had a windfall of cash.

result?

one very sexy leather jacket and an uber-vogue bag from zara and two pairs of shoes from qube - black ankle boots and white flats.

the shopaholic in me is alive and kickin'!

i've never felt so happy in my life! haha superficial u say? sorry but i havent been shopping for eons ie 2weeks and i needed the new stuff. actually, the things on my list were just new shoes and new jacket but wats an extra pair of shoes and another handbag, ey? anyway, last weekend my house got a flyer saying if we wanna get rid of our stuff like clothes perfumes etc all we had to do was put the stuff in a box outside our door with the flyer attached. so how cool is that? this means i can get rid of the stuff i dont wear and need anymore, giving more space for new stuff! and to be frank, i need new jeans bcoz my waist in now... 2 inches smaller than it was last year! i mean, that is one solid reason to buy new jeans, u knw.

pluss.. i haf a new shopping partner - apip! homaigod it feels so good to haf that certain chemistry with a fellow shopaholic. i mean, bee usually needs convincing when she wants sumthing coz she'll go shud i get it its too expensive i alredi haf suthing like it etc etc (bee, i knw u read this and u knw this is true!) and nis prefers shopping alone but with apip its like, grab anything and everything u think is lawa and that'll fit u and lets go to the dressing room! but hopefully this wont be a habit since i need to save cash jua. ingat kaya sangat aku ah. lol. but i guess we can do with a bit of window shopping...

speaking of which, thres gonna be a special students sale at topshop next week. cant wait. altho there'll be ramai orang and i cant stand pushing ppl around and having too many ppl in such a little space. i cant even stand boxing day. but i found a pair of jeans that i want in topshop which insyaAllah i will get next week. theres also another jacket i want from zara. haha.. liat la how it goes next week. i feel like shopping for the house jua. give it a few more quintessential homely touches. but i'll have to wait and see how my weekend trip in london will turn out. im vowing not to go shopping tho, not because of any substantial reason but because malas mengangkut the stuff from london back to canterbury.

on the still-developing-health freak in me, the ever-sacrificing apip has also volunteered to be my exercise partner. something that we're gonna start as soon ans ramadhan ends and when she gets her exercise gear. make that asap pip! i'll make sure u have an outfit by the end of this month.

sooo.. all this good news and new stuff, i just had to celebrate. me, bee, apip and the boys had sungkai at wagamama's which was every bit as good as i remembered. i had the chocolate fudge cake for desert too. i havent been doing yoga since i've started fasting but im hoping the twice hike-up a day to uni (and walks to town) suffices as my daily exercise regime for now.

i haf class in about 2 hrs and i think i need a lil' lie in before i mandi. im glad i finish my work for this week la. altho i need to get a start on next week's bcoz of my london trip. cant wait to see imah and mary and the sulia girls!

much love,
be'ah xoxo

p/s telefon baru c jirin lawa. shud i get a new fone now..?

nerd vs shopaholic

i spent the whole weekend reading up on property, family and tort law.

with a couple of hours breaks in between to watch friends and scrubs of course.

ooohhh and theres the new grey's anatomy and ANTM cycle 9 is out. i'm rooting for lisa. she's one hot exotic dancer ie stripper of a wannabe model.

this whole no debit card thing is getting to me. i cant even get an innocent pair of shoes from qube, or a nice coat from zara or a cute top from topshop. i cant even afford a trip to london yet :s so there i was, on saturday and sunday, in my room doing work and bumming in front of the tv. i'd have to say that bumming in front of the tv didnt reli appeal to me, proly bcoz thats how i spent most of my 4mth long summer vay-kay. i mean, yes i went to the gym but even so i watched tv while on the treadmill. thres only so much E! that a girl can take! so it was to the books i drowned myself in. it felt good tho, no more utak buntu, i'll say!

so i guess this is the second good thing coming out of the debit card fiasco - i am actually studying and doing my work, not because its due tomoro or theres a test, but because i have nothing to do. and u knw wat? it feels good =) i just hope this good-feeling from studying follows me thru all the way to exams and to third year. altho i doubt it once i get my debit card haha. i cant believe i've been here for more than a week -2 weekends - and i have not stepped inside h&m, zara or topshop. that, personally, makes me deserve a big box of krispy kreme which nobody managed to get me =p kidding~ i'll be going down to london next weekend so i'll get my own box of donuts.

which reminds me, if im going to london, i'd need to do extra work this week since i wont be doing anything substantial during the weekend...

omgd. did i just say that? i sound like bianca! haha oh well, its good that im in a rajin mood. pray that this will last for me, ppl! thats the least u guys can do, considering i'm a donut-free girl at the moment.

much love!

be'ah xxxx