fabulous

i didnt go jogging on monday. but i did walk to town that day. lugging several shopping bags =D

shopping was just as good as i remembered. better, even, bcoz i was getting presents too so it wasnt an entirely me myself and moi thing. and even better, i found a the most fabulous fall jacket for only 15quid. 15 quid! from zara too. i love it when i find good finds like that. and it was my size too. so yes, i knw i dont need a fall jacket as yet bcoz the weather's too cold now, but i went ahead and bought it anyway. i can wear it on my trip back to brunei.

speaking of which, i cant wait to go somewhere where i can sweat! its been so cold here. i heard it snowed it birmingham and in warwick. snow in november!! thats gotta be a first. anyhoo, it just means that winter this year wont be 'mild' like last year. everybody's saying how this time around its colder and harsher and ive only been here for one winter, but u can just feel it. now it gets as low as 1degree and if i remember correctly, it didnt even reach that last year, even in december. so ive got 3 more weeks to survive this grueling cold and im out to sunny borneo.

on another unrelated topic, i saw syamim ystrdy. syamim is like, the shrinking girl of canterbury. she lost more weight and i dont knw how she does it. aku jeles. see, mim?? i am writing abt u here! haha apakan sakit hati aku ah. but seriously, i admire ur willpower. but i just go weak when i see chocolate and ice cream. and our fridge stocker doesnt help either =p seeing how she can eat 3 horses, 2 cows and 1 elephant in one sitting and still stay a size 4.

anyhoo, i better go. i woke up late today, at quarter to noon which is the latest i've woken up since i got here. and to think ive got loads of work to do today. but i just felt like updating this to tell ppl what a bargain i got for such a fab jacket hehe. oh yea, and i did some online shopping as well. but thats another story.

much love,
be'ah xxx

back in the game

im in a quater life crisis now. at least, i think i'm in a quarter life crisis. but then again, maybe thats just my pms talking. besides, what exactly is a quarter life crisis anyway? or for that matter, a midlife crisis?

anyway, i was feeling a bit down lastnite. i stayed home out of choice =) its my first weekend home since forever anyway. but i cudnt go to sleep lastnite and i cudnt exactly put my finger on what was wrong. like i sed, it may be the pms thre. bcoz i cried. i cried so hard like i havent before. i cried like the times i cried when i missed that someone. so i tink maybe i miss that someone; but he was right there on skype with me. which we all knw isnt the same thing as being there with u but then, there was no need to cry on rory's shoulder was it?

so it mustve been the pms. i went to sleep eventually and i had weird dreams about jogging. and keeping fit. i tink i feel guilty bcoz i'm just gaining back the weight i've worked so hard to lose. and anyway, i miss sweating. i reli do miss exercising and having my heart pumped from the adrenaline. so i woke up and decided to jog. turns out bee wanted to jog so voila! we hit a milestone and the 2 girls who had take-outs every other nite during first year went jogging on a sunday.

it was freezing tho. we were all bundled up, but i wasnt bundled up as much as i would be bcoz i thot jogging would make me hot anyway. apparently the wind was a bit strong today and i didnt feel warm. and my hands were freezing. ditto my ears. and i dint sweat at all =( i could feel my heart pumping after 5mins or so but no sweat, which was dissapointing. and we were starting to hurt in places that i didnt tink possible from jogging. okay, we both kinda felt dizzy, but thats prolly coz we didnt drink enough water beforehand. but my jaw hurt. how does that happen from jogging? and my tongue too. at least i tink its my tongue but its more the jaw. i told jirin and bee maybe its coz i talk too much?

then i remember maybe its my tongue pierce. so its coming off for tonite.

theres another jogging date with bee tomoro morning. that is, if she wakes up early. then after my lecture its town which equals shopping. its been 3 weeks ppl. at least give me a pat on the back for trying. and im only gonna shop for stuff for ppl back home. which kinda makes me technically still on my no shopping deal. altho i have to admit the stuff i plan to buy tomoro arent exactly necessary.

but hey, im in a 'qaurter-life' crisis. so i deserve to shop.

toodles!

be'ah xxx

procrastination sinks

well, that definitely doesnt go well together. 'sinking under workload' with 'procrastination sinks'?

i've done my obs2 assessment and my obs2 seminar work, but sad to say, i havent done any family law and i just about touched the tip of the property iceberg.

and that iceberg is the one thing that hasnt sunk in. instead, its the procrastination iceberg that feels the shake and is sinking down fast.

i've been on my laptop and trying to listen to property lecture12 for the last 75minutes or so. instead, i find myself window online shopping (yes, im still keeping true to my words of no november shopping besides the odd necessity), checking out presents for those special ppl for when i get back.

and i've also been chatting on msn with the (bf's) sister.

and here i still am, putting off my work and blogging instead of listening to the lecture. truth of the matter is, i reli need to get the lecture done by tonite becoz i need to knw abt proprietary estoppel for the seminar tomoro.

which is at 11am. and i have a 9 oclock lecture tomoro so i cant even squeeze in the lecture tomoro if i wanted to. in other words, it has to be tonite.

maybe its this no shopping ban i've put on myself. and havent been doing yoga on account that i've been in london. i've also been eating alot. which is actually code for 'yes ali i haf been gaining weight'.

this sucks. maybe shopping is more of a benefit rather than a detriment to me. i'd definitely like to think so.

i miss the pre-weight-gained, at the height of my shopping and yoga days me. in my gorgeous leather jacket, equally gorgeous leather boots and just-as-gorgeous DKNY bag.

ka nadz is coming tomoro. which also equals a visit to apip. that will definitely cheer me up muchos!

much love,
be'ah xxx

sinking under the workload

i miss u..

so i had my weekend of fun. my extra long weekend of fun and leisure. bcoz i came back on tuesday instead of the promised monday.

me and the many aunts cousins and nini went for dinner at lagenda on friday, followed by waffles where one of us got picked up by a nice nicholas saputra lookalike =p. saturday and sunday was spent baby sitting the adorable baby hana banana alias hana zahirah (who is so so cute!), watching tv (skye tv lgi tu. its funny that we've paid our tv license but we still dont get any channels) and out with bu ita and the baby for shopping! (bu ita, not me).

monday, the day i was supposed to balik and catch the 9oclock train back the ticket lady said i can only use it after 9.30. i thought, if i go 9.30, then i'll proly rush to my seminar. so i made an executive decision (esehmen) and decided not to balik. plus, i left the house w/o saying goodbye properly to my nini and she wasnt happy with me. so i came back and spent monday doind a bit of work (it was about time!) and a lot of shopping with syazwi. or rather, accompanying him shopping.

all this abstaining from shopping is having a sedated effect on me. i cant even feel happy for other ppl shopping anymore =s altho i got a glimpse of the LV bag that i have my eye on =D we went to selfridges and i gotta hand it to syazwi, his shopping puts my shopping to shame! but maybe thats coz i dont have my own credit card yet. altho truthfully, i dont plan on having one. bcoz at the rate i shop, its just safer to stick with paper than plastic.

so today im back in my comfy old room, which was freezing just a couple of hours ago. when did it start getting so cold?? my room usually feels stuffy with the heater turned up high but now i have it on high and im wearing my kent hoodie. i cant wait to balik december. warm weather, mate. and i dread thinking of going up and down the hill to go to classes in this freezin' weather. makes me appreciate the short length i had to walk when i still lived on campus. well, i've got abt 30days to go and then its back to brunei and my beloved gym.

anyhoo, as i was saying, i had 4 days of slacking and adorable company and great food (thanx cits!) but my weekend of fun and leisure did not sit well with my work load. as of now i have

3hrs worth of lecture to catch up
1 seminar work to catch up and another 2 for this week
1 obs2 essay of 1500 words due on friday

and last but not least. wat every uni students have to do, esp law students:-

bucketloads of reading.

i've got one case to read which goes on forever (specifically 12 pages) and the prior reading i have to do for seminars anyway.

oh, and i have to do all this b4 the weekend, mind u.

but yet, here i am blogging. at least i've done half of my obs2 essay. this is such a depressing ending.

this will cheer me up.


baby hana banana!

londres

i just realised i havent updated. this is the longest i've never updated since last easter, and that was bcoz i didnt have internet connection.

why? i realised that most of the things i write are so repetitive.

shopping. boyfren. yoga. shopping. boyfren. my workload. boyfren.

all sounds so superficial, ey?

but jirin said 'but u have readers nonetheless!' so im gonna update for the sake of those ppl, pebaik theyre only my ever-loyal-boyfren and my hsemate who lives just next door to me (thats you, bee).

so i tink i last complained abt my huge workload coz i've been slacking the previous week. fortunately managed to catch up and even squeeze in time to jln and hang around with syazwi, whose currently here on a visit. oh yea, thanx wi for lanja-ing me! hehe now im in london squeezing family time with baby hana banana. remember my little cousin whom i posted a picture of back in february? this is the same girl, even more melating-er and more adorable.

i will post up a picture of her soon. in the meantime, i just got called that a babysitter is needed downstairs so i gtg. ta!

much love,
be'ah xxx

sobriety of shopping

i have never resisted my shopping urges so much than in these last few days of november.

after reading that again, i just realised how much of a shopper i am. its only been 5days of november, 5 days since allowance came out and 5 days since i vowed to myself not to shop for, um, unnecessary things. to be more specific, i promised myself not to buy anything this month except for essentials, groceries and the odd meal out. and then i realise its only been 5days. and it feels like its been weeks since i last shopped. its nice to knw that my money isnt dwindling as fast as last month, but my heart just aches when i think of all the make-up (make-up brushes, gel eye liner) and toiletries (like pore packs, facial masks, epilators) that i wanna buy and i deem necessary but i know are in essential, just to satisfy my shopping whims. or my beauty whims. same difference.

thats being mature and adult-ey to u. being able to control ur whims. give me a pat on the back for this yes? i've never made so much of an effort or felt so mature ever. not even when i first cooked my own butter-milk chicken from scratch.

and predictably, i've been going online to see all the stuff i can buy but i won't. i just need to get thru november, then december i'll be drown by essays and humongous workload, then i'll be on the way home to brunei. i'll only allow myself to shop until after xmas break. lets see how well i keep that promise =)


all this no shopping talk is quite depressing for me. but i knw i need to cut down, unless i wanna be broke b4 my first job. plus, need to save up for my wedding!

now thats a topic i like. weddings.

but i'll keep it to myself.

on another note, sayang's bro just got into an accident. rezzy's got a sprained ligament which basically makes him housebound so i wish both u guys a speedy and healthy recovery.

fortunately, no shopping leaves me more time to do work. so thats good. altho i've been doing more catching up than plain studying coz ive been missing loads of my property lecture. nis and jem just got back from shopping and they got measuring scales and a mixer (so we can make cakes!) for the house and the complete 6 seasons of sex and the city! hurray!

maybe that will keep my mind off shopping. speaking of which, i've caught up with my usual dose of grey's and ugly betty. also on a list of distractions for myself (for lack of going out), ka nadz is coming to canters soon! she hasnt said when, but its definitely this month. so yayyy!

i'll leave u guys with this picture. my fave of the halloween bunches. bad ass fairy with sissy mafia dude.





much love,
be'ah xxx

back in the swing of things

i've finally finally got back into my old schedule. no more (really late) mornings, brunch and skipping classes. no more feeling tired, groggy or sick. altho i still have a bit of a cough in me. but my voice is slowly getting back to normal, no more 'drag queen voice' and no more 'ALEE ABAWBWAA~'.

org2xnya sja faham tu.

anyhoo, i've started doing yoga again AND studying and doing proper work for seminars. considering it was a wednesday, which is 3 days (minus the weekend) since reading week, its not good, but its sumthing. i finally feel the tingle in my brain saying its time. haha.

on the other hand, i think im a bit behind property law. who the hell gets property law?? and donald with his sexy eyes and dreamy voice doesnt help either. instead of making me and vanessa sit up and listen, he actually makes our minds wander off with his soft voice. he may haf lovely eyes, but they dont pierce u like u expect they would. like that guy in my family law seminar..

despite doing yoga, i tink ive been eating a lot more. maybe my body still knows its raya? i dont knw. but i got lots to look forward to this weekend. theres apip's halloween party friday nite, then jirin's open hse and vivi's open hse on saturday. plus, ali says shuk and the boys will prolly come over this weekend, so thats fun. aaaand today is first of november which obviously means that allowance is out! sadly, i spent all my quota on shopping last month so i wont be shopping this month. actually, my last month's shopping expenditure was actually 3 months worth of shopping. i hear the girls are going to primark/ashford and i'd love to join but hey, i'd rather have money in my pocket than burn holes in it. plus i'm going home in december anyway so i dont reli need to spend much then.

speaking of which, i will be united once again with my second love - the gym. i cant wait to wake up mornings and go on the treadmill while watching E! or travel and living, do yoga 3 times a week and do weights. and this time around it'll be different. bcoz my boyfren is finally back in brunei for good.

but first, i gotta get thru november and the killer essays early dec. then im off in the new triple 7 to brunei =D

much love,
be'ah xxx