back in the game

im in a quater life crisis now. at least, i think i'm in a quarter life crisis. but then again, maybe thats just my pms talking. besides, what exactly is a quarter life crisis anyway? or for that matter, a midlife crisis?

anyway, i was feeling a bit down lastnite. i stayed home out of choice =) its my first weekend home since forever anyway. but i cudnt go to sleep lastnite and i cudnt exactly put my finger on what was wrong. like i sed, it may be the pms thre. bcoz i cried. i cried so hard like i havent before. i cried like the times i cried when i missed that someone. so i tink maybe i miss that someone; but he was right there on skype with me. which we all knw isnt the same thing as being there with u but then, there was no need to cry on rory's shoulder was it?

so it mustve been the pms. i went to sleep eventually and i had weird dreams about jogging. and keeping fit. i tink i feel guilty bcoz i'm just gaining back the weight i've worked so hard to lose. and anyway, i miss sweating. i reli do miss exercising and having my heart pumped from the adrenaline. so i woke up and decided to jog. turns out bee wanted to jog so voila! we hit a milestone and the 2 girls who had take-outs every other nite during first year went jogging on a sunday.

it was freezing tho. we were all bundled up, but i wasnt bundled up as much as i would be bcoz i thot jogging would make me hot anyway. apparently the wind was a bit strong today and i didnt feel warm. and my hands were freezing. ditto my ears. and i dint sweat at all =( i could feel my heart pumping after 5mins or so but no sweat, which was dissapointing. and we were starting to hurt in places that i didnt tink possible from jogging. okay, we both kinda felt dizzy, but thats prolly coz we didnt drink enough water beforehand. but my jaw hurt. how does that happen from jogging? and my tongue too. at least i tink its my tongue but its more the jaw. i told jirin and bee maybe its coz i talk too much?

then i remember maybe its my tongue pierce. so its coming off for tonite.

theres another jogging date with bee tomoro morning. that is, if she wakes up early. then after my lecture its town which equals shopping. its been 3 weeks ppl. at least give me a pat on the back for trying. and im only gonna shop for stuff for ppl back home. which kinda makes me technically still on my no shopping deal. altho i have to admit the stuff i plan to buy tomoro arent exactly necessary.

but hey, im in a 'qaurter-life' crisis. so i deserve to shop.

toodles!

be'ah xxx