"you know you've made it big when people you don't know hate you."

"inside some of us is a thin person struggling to get out, but they can usually be sedated with a few pieces of chocolate cake."
- Anonymous

"Weight management has to be an uncompromising, non-negotiable, everyday thing, like brushing your teeth"
Linda Spangle, 100 Days of Weight Loss

Monday, September 1, 2008

Au Revoir FZ

the time has come for me to bid goodbye to my (almost) daily dose of workouts at the gym.

tomorrow is the first day of puasa and however much i'd like to continue going to the gym, it just isn't an option to workout in a food deprived state. i can go after tarawih prayers but i just dont see myself going to the gym at 9pm. plus, my bedtime's at 10pm lol.

so today i had my last and final gym session and PT with rose and to celebrate with a bang, i went to the kiulap branch. that gym always intimidates me (psl its lgi canggih dari mall kali? and more ppl go there?) but today, with rose around, it was brilliant! it was only my 3rd time there today and the 2 previous times were to use the hall to play badminton.. so i was pretty sakai with all the spiffy and much more canggih gym stuff they have there. even tried the rock-climbing wall lol.

today was like saying goodbye to a very good old friend. after a quickie body conditioning class with timmy, rose made me go on the treadmill for a bit and then i went and tried out all the spiffy weight machines they have as opposed to doing the dumbbells workout i do at the mall. we managed to climb a few metres up the rock-climbing wall (super duper fun i tell you!) and then some stretching, where rose practicaly pulled my arms off =p

then i discovered that the gym has a food bar! with ice cream!!! and cookies!!

i was all sakai abt it and told rose about it. she said 'of course la. after exercise, u feel good u eat ice cream la'

0-o this is coming from my trainer who just last week said (indirectly) parutku labu!

then she said the ice cream was there for ppl who wanted some mixed in with their protein shakes. oh my gee i was sooo sakai at the food choices and all. after a quick shower i sat down with rose for some ice cream and cookies, kinda like a farewell thingamajig i suppose. hey, at least i had the food with rose, so anytime tyres start to appear around my midriff again, imma be blaming her!

i also had my last examination today -ie the magic machine that tells how fat i am. the kiulap one's was more canggih with some bars for me to hold.. i got excited all over again that rose had to tell me to stay still twice. mcm apakan aku ah.. nda pernah ke gym kali pakah lol. but seriously, it was all so new to me i felt like i just rediscovered myself!

awu, sakai to the max bah.

anyhoo, my last exam turned out great! well, my fitness level is still buruk compared to pre singapore, btu i'll work on that after puasa. i found out my left leg is fatter than my right leg.. like, my left leg carries more fat mass that the right one. which explains why my right is stronger than the other. rose says its normal plg. but i am happy to say that both my arms carry equal fat ie my arms are equally strong! woo hoo. rose said 'wow' at this so im guessing its not normal. haha but yea. all the numbers on the paper that came out of the machine looked good so i'm happy to just (sort of) let myself go this ramadhan.

i said in a previous post anyway that i'm just gonna depend on puasa for weight management. plus, theres tarawih prayers, which will be like yoga anyway.

speaking of which, i skipped yoga today to do PT with rose and in the locker room found from the aunties that will was looking for me. in the words of ka alin 'will sed u dont sayang him nomore'

haha. man, im so attached to everyone and everything related to the gym. im gonna miss rose with her never-faltering smile, wills with his stern look when i do something wrong, lyza with her 'i fell fat' and michelle's calm voice and all the aunties i see every morning! oh well, till next year.

might as well get the most out of ramadhan kan. selamat berpuasa everybodeh! see u guys d gerai ramadhan (hehehe) or better, d masjid if we happen to terawih at the same place.

much much love,
be'ah xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Sunday, August 31, 2008

Final Weekend

was looking forward to do latin aero and bodybalance ystrdy. came to the gym just before 8 (im getting later everyday ever since coming back from singapore) and looked out for michelle's face.

8 o'clock came by.. then ten past. okayy, maybe she's late. it happened last year with rose because she had an aerobic session to do with some ministry function. so i hopped on the elliptical trainer and did 15mins on the fat burner.

8.35 and still no michelle. i cudve asked the receptionist, but i was sweating as it is so i decided to get on the bike for an alpine pass. 15mins into it and Angie came in asking why i wasnt in class with michelle. i was panting by that time trying to keep my breathing steady, so Angie asked the cleaner where michelle was.

'Michelle sick, maam'.

okay... if michelle's sick ie not coming that would mean classes are CANCELLED then how come her classes were still WRITTEN ON THE BOARD??

see, i love the gym. i love that it gives me the opportunity to exercise, shows me the potential i can be when i sweat regularly but this is not the first time that the gym has failed me on the class schedule because of poor communication between staff.

rose's pilates class was put up on the board on the day she went to thailand. i asked the receptionist who was giving it and she gave me this puzzled look, as if I'M stupid for not reading the board because it CLEARLY states ROSE next to PLATES 8AM, that rose was giving it.

'but rose is going to thailand this morning'

'oh. really? well.. let me check then'.

she replied with a smile tho. but it CLEARLY showed she didnt know rose was off to thailand. like hello? dont u guys have those weekly staff meetings or something? how come I know rose went off to thailand and YOU dont?

another incident was when they closed the mall branch because of the kiulap's one year anniversary. the next morning i came, a lady was complaining to the receptionist (the very same one) that she wasnt informed that the mall's was closed, that she came the morning and there was no notice watsoever regarding why the mall's branch was closed.

the receptionist's reply? 'I'm sorry ma'am. but my colleague forgot to put up the notice the night before'

i'd say this isnt one of those things that u can be forgiven easily. plus, FZ said they texted their members abt it and to come to kiulap instead. i didnt receive the text. neither did angie. i only knew abt it after reading rano's site.

which is funny really. because when i was in uk, i got a text from them to invite me to come to their annual dinner. sudah ku d brunei, nada text atu. and my brunei number is the same, fyi.

yes this is a post dedicated to the weakness of the gym. i think its long due anyway. despite all this, i still love coming to the gym. i love the friends i make there and i love that i have a place to go to in the morning.

anyway. this weekend's workout was so-so. after 25mins on the bike, i stayed to chat with angie for awhile (in which we talked about some of the aforementioned topics) and i was whisked away by boyfriend to have some yummylicious ikan kari at iskandar.

i was out lastnite (MUNIE'S AND WAFI'S TUNANG!!!) so i was too tired to be up and abot by 8.which is just as well, since i cancelled my session with rose because of my aching shoulders. must be the combination of my strength training on friday and my late nite on saturday. today was supposed to be my last day at the gym tho

BUT

while talking with angie ystrdy, she pointed out the gym's advertisement in the newspaper she was reading. it screamed FREE WORKOUT DURING PUASA and then continued to list down the gym's unique stuff like sauna yada yada. oh, and it also said BRING YOUR FRIENDS FOR FREE TOO'. there it was again. the word 'free'. i examined every inch of the advertisement looking for a catch or a loophole (again, another topic that can be talked abt endlessly with my gym mates! but that'll be for another day) but i cant find any loophole.

so if they stick to their word, i might still be coming to the gym during puasa for yoga. but im still skeptical, after all, what is really free nowadays anyway?

sheesh. such a long post. negative lgi tu padahal kan puasa. oh yes, i finally watched wall-e today. and introduced Brother 5 to sushi. he likes it so yayy! ada support for sushi for next family dinner!

i'mma go now. selamat berpuasa everybodeh!

much love,
be'ah

Friday, August 29, 2008

parut ku labu

during pilates today, in the midst of our usual crunches, my trainer exclaimed:

'wah rabz. u really did gain weight ah. ur tummy not as nice as before singapore!'

kurang asam.

sudah tah my fitness level turun, today i cant even run for a 15mins stretch. been feeling sooooo lethargic!

but after pilates, rose made me go on the tanita machine (as opposed to me requesting to get on it. i think she's worried all our PT sessions had gone to waste because of my singapore getaway) and we found that i DID NOT gain weight. in fact, i even lost a tiny teeny percent of body fat.

thus rose concluded that my tummy is labu because 'no crunches in singapore baah. not toned anymoree'.

i'd rather not lose that tiny percentage of bodyfat if it means sacrificing my almost flat abs.

oh well. one more PT session on sunday and then its puasa time! i still need to adjust my food portions. been eating giant portions since coming back. time puasa lgi tia.. wat with the food fest during sungkai.

speaking of food, me and bf tried out the new deli france that just opened at the airport. i used to love their croissant sandwiches when they were in yayasan, and i adore their almond croissants. ystrdy me and him has a proper lunch tho. the french onion soup was deeelish! must try when u guys go there!

much love,
be'ah xxx

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Bodystep

went to the gym today (but of cooourse! lol). thursdays are my fave days for gyming because theres steps at 8, followed by yoga at 9. its the only day i feel i reli work up a sweat because no matter how lazy or down or tired i feel, i am forced to push myself because other ppl in the class can do it, or do it better.

today was extra tough. i thought it was prolly coz i was away ie fitness level not up to par like before. sekali went to rano's site and saw the launching of bodysteps.

PATUTTAH!

Ms Rose Pradel who he mentioned is none other than my Rose, my trainer, who went away to thailand last week.

so her classes are now tougher. takes time getting used to plg. i was alredi used to her old routine. but then, i wont be gyming once ramadhan starts, so next year la.

i lost half a kilo. which proves half of the kilo i gained was water weight. susspeeen-ded. anyhoo, tomoro i have PT with rose~ one of my last sessions with rose b4 i stop coming to the gym *sob* but tis okeh. i have puasa to look to for weight maintenance hehe.

one more thing, di kesempatan ini i'd like to congratulate MUNIE AND WAFI on their imminent engagement on saturday. CONGRATULATIONS U GUYS!

yes, im jealous. haha. but my turn witll come insyaAllah. every one of u guys reading this, amin kan nie! lol

much love,
be'ah xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Alive and Well

i arrived in brunei monday night.

gained ONE EFFIN' KILO from singapore.

but no lasting damage done i think. went straight to the gym tuesday morning =D did the usual weight reps. my arms are aching today tho. so i took the day off today. me thinks its the whole travelling from sg to bru then tarus ke gym esuknya kali. mcm.. jetlag kali? lol

boyfren is on leave (again. yayy!) and we had sushi (wat else?) for dinner lastnite. and he brought with him the best best best surprise EVER!



gigantic plg and it was mucho heavy. it wasnt even our anniversary or my birthday. but i love surprises and i love flowers even more, so not complaining!

now my room carries the heady scent of lilies~ *GRIN*

thank u sayaaang!

anyhoo, tonite dinner at rezzy's. seeing the portugal geng tonite and i know wani rindu saya =p haha

much love,
be'ah xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Thursday, August 21, 2008

stuff it

i went berserk at Candy Empire ystrdy.

so there goes my almost flat abs.

bekos they have COOKIES AND CREAM kitkat!!!

AND

COOKIE DOUGH kitkat!!!


chunky lagi tu! oh dear i think i'm getting chunky. sokay. theres 5days of gym left and then puasa.


oooh, and i also got meself a pair of levis. like, if i gain an inch waist-wise, i'll need to work it off anyway in order to get back into them. smart kan?


hope evryone is enjoying barunai!

much love,
be'ah xxxxx

p/s to my dear brothers, do not fret! kaka bali kan brg kamu sudah. jgn complain if nda suka. syukur tah kaka ingat kamu :p

UPDATED:

i also got strawberries and cream cookies from crabtree&evelyn! sinfully deeelissh!

awu membabi ku d singapore. so i am a NORMAL human being who also succumbs to society's marketing pressure haha.

there, its not ALL exercise and weights. but then again, after all the strength training and cardio i do, i think i can afford to membabi for a few days.
(read: my metabolism is faster than last year)

PLUS- all the walking and my arms ladenful of shopping bags equals cardio and weights anyhoo. at least, thats what i tell myself hehe.

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

belayar ku yowh

in 2 hrs imma be on the flight to singapore with the other half on the flight deck aka cockpit.

soo...... expect me to bag more shoes in the land of sales and aggressively convincing salespeople!

oh, this also means im taking a a break from the gym. but i tink i over-exerted myself thet last couple of days coz my tummy hurts when i laugh. so much-needed holiday indeed!

much love,
be'ah xxx