"you know you've made it big when people you don't know hate you."

"inside some of us is a thin person struggling to get out, but they can usually be sedated with a few pieces of chocolate cake."
- Anonymous

"Weight management has to be an uncompromising, non-negotiable, everyday thing, like brushing your teeth"
Linda Spangle, 100 Days of Weight Loss

Thursday, February 4, 2010

1 month

today marks my one month anniversary since starting at work.

basar sudah ya~ haha =p

had lunch today with fadz and nis (and su who was there in spirit coz she cudnt make it). was suppose to belanja but nis beat me to the bill! padahal i planned the whole lunch thing.. hmpf. made them promise that next time, it'll be on me. hee which is funny coz dulu mesti split and everything and nobody ever argues when someone else belanja!

we were also in our work attire, which added to the whole we-are no-longer-in-high-school vibe. sigh. where did the time go, ey? we've already got a few friends married, with/expecting a baby. but at this moment in time, i can speak for us 3 that we are enjoying our newly acquired status of working singles (in the unmarried sense. of course i' m still with my boyfriend la~) and having that financially stability we've never had ever.

the whole belanja thing creates a nice fuzzy feeling inside, you knw? you are spending money on ppl u care. i reckon i read it somewhere.. a research was done where money does buy happiness but only in the sense that u feel happy when u buy things for/spend on loved ones. which works for me! hee. only recently i got my mother a watch which i've been dying to get her (psl jam nya bida plg jua haha) and now i've finally given her the watch and seeing her reaction mcm..

yayyy~

haha. also, its nice to be able to save up for the *bigplan* and not rely on sponsors or *ahem* boyfriend. who, by the way, has been very very supportive throughout my spending needs and wants in the whole 4 years of our relationship. good thing im not so demanding =p

my social life has been limited since i started work tho (eh wait, what social life?). i cant go to the salon as often as i want or watch movies or GO TO THE GYM as much =(

tomoro will be a busy day tho. we're having a legal unit day out (sounds impressive but the whole unit is just 2 of us. more like a catch-up sesh with a fren haha but i like how legal unit day out sounds). gonna jog at tasek with me boss and maybe minum2x and catch up with the rest of ID at 'baddy' (as my boss puts it) after. also, esuk petang one of the nicest, sincerest and hospitable couples i know are going to be ijab kabul-ed =D alhamdulillah~

is it sad that i'm excited about jogging and going to a wedding? haha. no, pls dont answer.

much love,
rabi'a xoxo

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Petrol

in the past few mths, my car (or the car i'm using if u wanna be anal about it) has been having minor problems. my dad, the super organised man that he is, has been taking the car in every week for check ups and watever needs to be fixed. sure its no fun when i wake up to go to the gym and find the car gone, but when it comes back, presto, a full tank of petrol!

last friday was the same routine. dad dissapears with car to workshop, comes back with things fixed. the petrol was running especially low by that friday. in such a situation, the car would USUALLY come back with a full tank courtesy of my dad.

but no. when i next used the car, the petrol level was more or less the same.

moral of the story: once u get your first paycheck, u pay ur own petrol!

oh well. good thing the office is only 5 mins away from home.

much love,
rabi'a xoxo

Friday, January 22, 2010

hmmm...

i dont knw what to write. ahaha. just saying hello and that i am alive and well, despite the lack of gym.

oh, i've been feeling tired ever since i started work eventho i clock in at least 7hrs of sleep.. so my mum's diagosed it as mental fatigue and made me take scott's cod liver oil emulsion.

good stuff. but only the orange flavoured one.

i am only 23 and my workload isnt even that heavy. and already i am mentally tired!! i wonder what would happen to me if i didnt like my work.

i'd probably quit the job. hee. mental tiredness aside, my job is all good so scott's emulsion is my new best friend!

much love,
rabi'a xoxo

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

one week in

of my being an official adult.

actually, i dont know why i keep saying that. after all, ur only as young (or as old) as how u feel. i still feel the same.. but i guess the idea that i am now financially independent makes me feel more adult-y than when i turned 16, 18 or 21. heck, thinking back, 16 is still kanak-kanak. like, anching masih. hahaha

i'm sure ten or maybe even 5 yrs down the line and i'm gonna say the same thing abt being 23 (which i will be in 5 days!). funny how turning 23 isnt bothering me much. i hated turning 20 because i officially lost my 'teen' status. turning 21 was okay because it meant i was legally an adult worldwide (tho how that makes a difference; i dont knw. its not like i go clubbing anyway) and 22 was bearable, as long as nobody shouted happy 22nd birthday as opposed to simply happy birthday. but now the idea of being 23 is just that. i turn 23. full stop. its just an age.

yes, i've becomed those ppl who say age is just a number. i use to think these ppl were in denial of their age. but now i'm one of them.. i'd say, no. it reli is just a number.

moving on.. here i am blathering about age when what i reli wanted to talk about is my job.

i wouldnt say i have a career per se. a career, as how i see it, is a job that fullfills u and become part of who u are. how i see it is that i have a job that pays well; a job which i have enjoyed so far. i love the working environment, i love the people i work with and i find the job interesting and very informative. i've learnt so much in my 1 week at work than my one term at university! but i guess its because at work, i apply the knowledge rather than just regurgitate it on paper.

i know it might be too soon to tell whether i really do love my job, but i can say for sure that i like it. the first couple of days were overwhelming, but this was wholly due to the other legal counsel being on leave. the day she came back, everything was just clear to me. she explained how much i needed to know and stuff that i wasn't expected to know and basically put me at ease. she knew that it was my first job - first job experience ever- and she was okay with that as long as i was willing to learn. i have to say, after 5 consecutive months of doing whatever i wanted, plus another 2 months between final exams and graduation, i was thirsty for knowledge! i feared my brain would fry up or shrink because of the lack of use; not to mention all i did was focus on my physical ie the gym gym gym gym ALL. THE. TIME.

okay i'm not annoyed at myself for being such a shallow person. i still want to go to the gym but i just dont have the freedom to exercise as often as i want. i do go fridays and sundays and i'm hoping to squeeze in another session on tuesday or weds night so that i get at least 3 sessions per week. for now, its just the 2, squeezed at the end of the week. the least i can do is do my sit ups in the morning before brekfast and make sure i eat at 2 hr intervals to keep my metabolism up. the latter not being much of a problem with the amount of food available at the office =D

anyway, before i end this post i would love to wish my dear brother a happy 17th birthday.

also, to my dearly beloved (eseh), a happy 4th anniversary. its amazing how u still make me angau after 4 yrs.

i'll leave it at that =p

much love,
rabi'a
[who will possibly get married in 2011, insyaAllah jika umur panjang dan disampaikan jodoh ;)]

Sunday, January 3, 2010

hello 2010!

i am psyched about 2010. loads to look forward to and many improvements and resolutions to put into place. started the new year with a super amazing getaway at empire with fadz and my family. metinks its a good start for 2010 =)

this is gonna be a proper new year post, so its gonna be quite a long one. i'm gonna be starting work (very very) soon so there will obviously be a sharp decline in posts here. fear not 'cause facebook is around =p anyway, because of that, i plan to leave my dear readers with enough to last them till the next post.

2009 was a great year for me. i've discovered my love for pumping weights (there i go again with exercise) and graduated from university. i re-kindled old friendships and made new ones. i had a major fight with the boyfriend but in the end made us stronger as a couple. i came and saw Paris, Brussels and Amsterdam. i've reached my one year mark of weight-loss (cause thats when ppl usually relapse). i received a job offer which i am ecstatic about. i've finally met my boyfriend's family and (i believe) they like me. i learnt that i love baking for people. i had a fantastic 22nd birthday thanx to imah and huda and even hazim and padil. i had a super awesome snow fight with my kent gang and i really cherish all the memories of hanging out in the living room, of camping, of partying, of sing-star-ing and even the everyday cooking together rituals i do with my housemates.

i can go on and on about the good stuff. there were down times too. the day i had to cancel my new york trip because of H1N1. those final days before my final year exams.. when all i wanted to do was cry and give up. for that i thank my boyfriend for being there for me and telling me i can get through my degree.. which i did. those days when the major fight i had with said boyfren were the worst. for helping me thru that, to nav and illah i heart u both so so much!

hmm.. okay this is getting to be a thank you post. so while i'm at it, thank you buyai and fadz for my awesome new year's eve.

of best and worsts.. theres stuff that are on a category of its own. like eating chicken liver mousse (never again!), staying up at cits and helping out with a huge wedding order. talking in my half-asleep stupor. eating korean food and barbeque-ing my first chicken. strawberry picking. discovering i love bodycombat and that i hate running (outside or treadmill; same thing). kayakking with fadz and beating james the trainer in the kayak race. having to write in 'unemployed' when filling out forms (not anymore nyahaha). driving myself broke by shopping non-stop at shopaholics mj. discovering that green looks good on me (random eh haha).

are u bored yet? i'm writing all this so i wont forget how amazing 2009 was to me. i emerged out of it with a law degree, more friends and a weird-looking tan. good times!

here's to hoping 2010 is just as kind, if not better.

happy new year, everyone!

much love,
rabi'a
(yes i changed my name hee. pasal rabz is kinda wearing me out. and i'm getting OLD. krg sampai jadi nini rabz lol)

p/s 2 weeks and counting till i turn 23!

Friday, December 25, 2009

how was your week?

syaima and daus' wedding was fab. i loved syai's dresses.

caught avatar courtesy of rezzykins. thank u for the belanja. will be watching the movie again tomorrow with my aunt. yes its THAT good.





and i got the job offer. the job i wanted.

*shriek*



alhamdulillah. its cause y'all were praying for me tu. hehe

wont be starting until after my medical fitness result. but after that its all systems go cause they want us (the new recruits) to start asap. so did the med check and this time got my blood taken by a nice lady who did it in one go. last time i did it (for the scholarship thing), this dude had to take more from my other arm and it was painful.

the spot is still bruised tho. i dont knw if thats normal or cause i aggravated it some more from bodypump ystrdy. aaah.. the gym. i'm gonna miss it when i start work. hee.


will talk more in the next post.

much love,
be'ah xoxo

Saturday, December 12, 2009

spongebob squarepants

since my last blog post, i'm happy to say i've ventured slightly outside my sheltered world of the gym. i've taken to going to tasek some days and tried out one of the jungle routes. gotta say, the fresh air was *ahem* refreshing. hee.

the sun was beating down quite strong tho. but the air was good so it was a very nice change from the air-conditioned air inside four mirrored walls. anypants, this post will be a recap of wat i've neglected to write so theres a high possibility i go off on a random tangent.

i've caught new moon, finally! after 2 weeks of its release in UK, a week after its premier in brunei and 2 days after its official show in brunei. talk abt hard to get tickets. but then again theres not reli much to look forward to in brunei so i guess a movie that big is bound to be sold out for the first couple of days.

also, in an effort to reclaim my social life outside the gym, i attended my first BDAC penyinar meeting in.. 3 yrs? good to see the old faces tho the new faces are lookin' quite young, again reminding me of the fact that i am now a fully fledged adult who needs to go out and get a job!

speaking of which, i've had my first official job interview~ okay i did a quickie one back in september but that didnt reli count coz i didnt apply for the job. i am reli reli hoping i get this job so if its my rezeki, i shall belanja everyone in the family (and some selected frens hee)! note tho, that I will get to say what constitutes as a fair belanja. so no ridiculous requests such as a lamborgini or even tickets to spore. okay the latter may be reasonable for my parents but anyhoo, will do a big announcement hoo-ha when i get my first paycheck. woot woot!

moving on, i've been back to hanging out at cits. so of course i've been stuffing my face with cupcakes. and churros. she has decided to sell churros so whenever its available i grab a piece and stuff it in my mouth. its deep fried carbs. coated with cinnamon and sugar and doused with a hefty dose of chocolate/caramel sauce. i helped her out selling cupcakes at a barracudas game (man the energy was so alive! i forgot how exhilirating a live game can be!) and kept starring at the churros for sale that i cudnt touch. but she overestimated baking so i was allowed to eat cupcakes.. so i was essentially stuffing myself between sales. also, i've discovered the most dee-lish-shes burger in brunei ever! home made patty at its finest! thick lgi tu! i tink its from santai? needless to say i ate my heart out that nite at the game.

so....

yes i've gained back the weight i so painstakingly tried losing after raya. but i am as hell confused because my bajus keep needing to be altered smaller. maybe its the cutting of the baju. today i went for a baju fitting at maggie's for a baju that i wanted to wear for a fren's wedding (and december is wedding session anyway) and she had to tuck in a couple of inches here and there. maybe she purposely cuts the baju loose in case i gain weight.. or to make me feel kurus-er so when fitting comes she can keep putting pins in as if i lost more weight.

that said, i tink i may have gained because my tummy muscles are stronger. i can actually endure a whole session of abs blitz now. waheyy~ up till the end of last month, i'll been stopping now and then when the trainer wasnt looking. but i do wonder where this 2kg weight is going! inda jua kan semua ke muscle kali?? talk abt a yo-yo weight!

regardless, cause my bf still loves me for who i am. hehe. today's our 3yrs 11mths anniversary. how time flies. tick tock tick tock and we'll be up there on a wedding dais (ameen ja. ameen!!). hehe apakan. till next time. pray that i get the job pls!

much much love,
be'ah xoxo