buntu mind

minda saya buntu. my mind is um, (the english word for buntu here). i met up with a few kent ppl tdi.. it was nice. then jirin sent me home and we were talking about how buntu our minds are. i mean, now i understand why ppl do attachments during the summer hols. i haf been jobless and doing nothing for the whole 4 mths of summer and to be honest

i dont like it!!

i keep thinking whether i'll still remember how to do an essay. or even follow a lecture. grrr. next summer tah i do work. kinda late now to do anything harhar. oh god, my mind feels blank wah. i need, like, an essay question or sumthing. just as long as it doesnt entail a math question. i mean, going to the gym is great, i love love sweating but i guess we humans need intellectual exercise too. nyeh. kinda convinces me now that i dont wanna be a housewife. yes ppl, i used to harbour secret ambitions to be a hsewife. kinda like an alpha female with alpha kids, alpha family, that kinda thing. haha but no. i still need the odd intellect challenge now and then. aisehhhmen. haha.

watever. im at that stage now where i cant wait to go back to uni. i reli reli miss bee. i talked to her on msn lastnite. i forgot how we cud read eachother reli well. i knw its gonna be puasa plg and when the time comes to actually leave brunei sedih jua la but then, i cant wait to go to cooler weather (minus the english rain) and wearing voguer clothes and the shopping thre! and having financial freedom!! plus im coming homw in december so thres no worry of homesick hehe coz i knw i'll be home soon =)

oh yes, as promised, a few pictures from zah's bday party.


the 2 lovebirds.. posers!


pretty birthday girl.. hehe shes got make up on coz she just got back frm a modelling job


aladdin's for shisha post surprise party

and here are pictures from adib's surprise birthday party, happy belated 21st!


the surprise-ee cutting his bday cake


the surprise-ers

yes, i got lots of august babies frens. if only my birthday falls in summer.. but the kent ppl are ultra nice during birthdays so i cant complain!

....and i just checked my timetable for this semester. i got wednesdays free! but i got 2 niners.. on thurs and friday! ugh. at least my mondays start at 12. i hope i dont get any seminars at 9. doakan pls.

much love xxxx

shapa rindu saya?

i miss bee. will see u very very soon Bianca Gabrielle Wu! oh yea, im thinking of getting a bike. bee! lets get bikes so we can cycle uphill together!!1 hehe





guess what ive been doing w/o any internet connection? i've been reading! nyahaha nothing wrong with reading. im an avid reader.. its just that i've read every book in my collection at least a dozen times alredi.. so apanah, in the end i read my old elit books.jane austen, r.k. narayan and the lot. and i finished the whole freakin lot. so i moved on to my lil bro's books - his roald dahl collection.

jobless much?

anyhoo, im feeling quite serene today. zah and syura just balik. they were here to hang out for a bit. happy belated birthdays to both of them! i will post up pictures of zah's surprise party nanti when aku rajin. for now, its my thoughts, idle dreams, wishes and just pretty stuff in pictures. i wont say more la. i'll leave u guys with the pretty pictures hehe.











i love the beach =)

just a quickie

my internet at home is down! so now im at the salvation of my cousin who so kindly lent me her connection. lgipun shes beside me so bisai jua d puji sikit hehe.

anyhoo, cant say much for now. im missing the boyfren very much. so im definitely coming home in december. and ive improved in yoga! i can do



this pose! yes, im more flexible now.

bah i gtg. kan grocery shopping. much love!

p/s oh yea, dont miss me too much. u guys wont be seeing much of me bcoz i dont haf internet at home!!!

Commitment Factor - The Capacity to Love

"no matter how head over heels your guy is during the initial honeymoon period of the relationship, it doesn't mean he's ready to commit [to marrying you].

A man might fall in love, which requires the capacity to idealize. this means thinking and feeling like his girlfren and the relationship are uniquely special, enabling him to ignore imperfections, which in turn, makes him feel valued and special.

Loving, on the other hand, involves connecting with the other person, understanding her, and wanting to be with her for who she is, not who he'd like her to be.

While it might be difficult to decipher the difference between the two, one clue is the test of time. faling in love happens early on in the relationship, when a couple barely knows each other's traits and quirks and once the initial love buzz is gone, a man who truly loves will stay while a man who was only in love, will bunk off.

Another major telltale sign of real love is selflessness and the ability to care. does your man make sacrifices for u? is he able to put your wants and needs before his? relationships are all about give and take, but love is more about giving"

-cosmo, august 07 issue

being a bitch means being honest

you.

stop being a loser. dont be jealous coz my boyfren's hot and urs not. be jealous coz he's mine, not urs.

tis nothing personal. i just felt like a bitchy post. shapa terasa.. well, work on ur self-esteem girl.. if u start to doubt ur boyfren's hotness because someone says he's not, then ur a loser.

okay. im the loser. my eyes are red and swollen. i miss my boyfren. i read in cosmo that when ur psm-ing u feel closer to ur boyfren bcoz of a certain hormone being released, making us want to feel loved and to love extra more. well, he's not here. so the best i can do is cry my eyes out.

stupid pms. no wonder women are mental. its the effin' hormones.

wishing every woman in the world a happy and sane pms phase. hah. like thats possible.

much love xxxx

making up

me and the sayang had a happily ever after. how?

a brabisly huge-mongous dinner of my faaaaaavourite sushi and japanese dishes.


and we alredi finished a couple of dishes if u notice the small pile of plates on the left.

aaaaaaand....

new shoes from charles and keith. i have been eying this particular pair of sexy chocolate stilletos with the metallic silver heels (totally high sex appeal) but i havent got round to buying them coz i spent the money on, um, doing my hair and a new baju. im lucky that when it comes to shoes, at least my man gets the hints =D


i hate to say it, but it looks like my anger can be abated with food and shoes. haha.

actually no. i tink the anger was just an excuse for the shoes and food. coz i knw he loves getting me stuff ;) isnt that right sayang?

i am a happy bunny indeed.

on the other side of the leaf (leaf? waat? haha ada jua kan ppl use this expression! no?), he is leaving tomoro. wont be seeing him till next yr =s

unless i balik december. me want to balik december. any sponsors?


much love xxxx

^%##@^%

i didnt enjoy lastnite.

and you're leaving in 3days.

lets wait for u to cool down ey?then u can bring up ur sorry self to apologise for being an ass to me.

mite take 3days. nice rite, leaving a girlfren in an angry state, overnite.

but watever.