today i went to town to go burn some cash with my mum. we hardly ever go out just the two of us in brunei, and even if we do, theres always that nagging feeling that a brother is mengusut at home or worse the hubby who wants the wifey and daughter home because its late. so today was our first ever girly hassle free shopping spree!
gosh. its took us 21 years to do this.
anyhoo, i've been trying to get a maxi dress for myself and petite ppl would know, maxi dresses are uber-difficult to find on our small frame. but today i got a double whammy - i actually found THREE maxi dresses that were just the right length but they were ONE size too big!
ugh. there needs to be more labels that cater to slim and petite ppl! like, its just encouraging ppl to be fat* because theres all these gorgeous clothes in big sizes and at the same time, discouraging ppl like ME to workout and lose weight because all there is left are jeans and tops. not cool, i tell you.
jane norman is nice enough tho. but its not reli my style. i guess i was at the wrong shop at the wrong rack. i did get myself a gorgeous pair of summer wedges and a pair of tan linen pants, at bargain prices too! and i paid for them, not mummy! hee. theres some sort of satisfaction u get when u shop with ur mum but ur using ur own money. mcm.. wow, im independent.
i hope tomoro's shopping trip will be better. going to ashford for the day. PLEASE let there be a maxi dress in my size at a decent price!
is that too much to ask? oh, and maybe a gorgeous pair of gladiator sandals. yes, im well on my way to a summer wardrobe =D
much love,
be'ah xxx
*not fat literally. lol
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Tiga Puluh Hari
going home in 30days!
now i kinda wonder what got into me when i decided to go home so late. my first couple of summer holidays have been really blah. jem was saying i shud be going out, not stay in. its funny, during exams i'll be out every now and then. now i cant even bother going out. maybe i'm saving the going out bit for when my mummy comes. but shes only gonna be here for a week..
then i'll be playing hostess to a bunch of friends, going to portugal.. and after portugal? i dont knw.
but ah well! tis done. altho i havent got the confirmation of my ticket dates from UPP. krg la saya tanya. or esuk. tonight im leaving for londres to meet me mama =D i kenot waiit!
actually theres loads to look forward to in my summer here. but i do miss the boyfren sangat2x.
dugaan bercinta d negeri orang. HAHA.
oh em gee. i'm still hyper. i wonder if my mum will notice that ive dropped 3.5kgs since the last time she saw me. live that is. skyping does not count. everybodeh knows the camera adds pounds.
i just hope i dont add the pounds banar2x when mum is around. coz when u get love+attention+mum's cooking = weight gain.
i'll make her jog with me. mesti nie! supaya kami kana ucap adik-beradik! apakan. make her look younger la, not me look older. actually, some ppl have thought we were sisters psl my mum's reli small. sudah close-up nda tia. harhar. im going off in tangents. this is wat u do when u are jobless.
i hear apip's coming round later. yezzer!
much love,
be'ah
(oh my this is such a random and all-over post)
now i kinda wonder what got into me when i decided to go home so late. my first couple of summer holidays have been really blah. jem was saying i shud be going out, not stay in. its funny, during exams i'll be out every now and then. now i cant even bother going out. maybe i'm saving the going out bit for when my mummy comes. but shes only gonna be here for a week..
then i'll be playing hostess to a bunch of friends, going to portugal.. and after portugal? i dont knw.
but ah well! tis done. altho i havent got the confirmation of my ticket dates from UPP. krg la saya tanya. or esuk. tonight im leaving for londres to meet me mama =D i kenot waiit!
actually theres loads to look forward to in my summer here. but i do miss the boyfren sangat2x.
dugaan bercinta d negeri orang. HAHA.
oh em gee. i'm still hyper. i wonder if my mum will notice that ive dropped 3.5kgs since the last time she saw me. live that is. skyping does not count. everybodeh knows the camera adds pounds.
i just hope i dont add the pounds banar2x when mum is around. coz when u get love+attention+mum's cooking = weight gain.
i'll make her jog with me. mesti nie! supaya kami kana ucap adik-beradik! apakan. make her look younger la, not me look older. actually, some ppl have thought we were sisters psl my mum's reli small. sudah close-up nda tia. harhar. im going off in tangents. this is wat u do when u are jobless.
i hear apip's coming round later. yezzer!
much love,
be'ah
(oh my this is such a random and all-over post)
Saturday, May 24, 2008
lookeee what i got!
its the benetint and gloss duo from Benefit! huhu ive been wanting to get benetint but this was cheaper. plus its handier coz its pocket size.
now u can see me have such gorgeous flush on my cheeks!
oh wait.. i just gave away my secret to naturally flushed cheeks. oh well.
anyhoo, lastnite we had a mini celebration for anisah's birthday coz she left today. it was a good dineer party.. had lamb chops, mashed potatoes, grilled peppers, corn on the cob, steamed broccoli with mushrooms, sticky date pudding, profiteroles, special karipap from brunei (specifically SPHI yg arah mall atu) and even cups made from chocolate that a certain someone thought wasnt edible.
oh me gawd listing all the food down is making me drool. noooooo! dont let this be the downfall of my hard work of exercising!
theres leftovers from lastnite in the fridge. uh-oh. heeelp!
imma go get a tiny bite of date pudding.
much love,
be'ah xxx
Friday, May 23, 2008
bring on the summer!
i finished my exams today. hurraay!!
say sangat hyper. i just organised my room so all my revision notes are safely packed away. some are even in the recycling bin sudah haha atu konfaiden pass. insyaAllah imma rock the exams =D i'm planning to clean the house (specifically the kitchen) tomorrow and maybe do a little bit of shopping in the afternoon. or window shopping. we shall see. hehe. need to get ready for my mum's arrival!
oooh i cant wait. she's also bringing me my slippers from brunei. mcm nda dpt bali sja sini ah? its called saving moneh. anyhoo, i only wore the slippers for a couple of months since i wore heels most of the time in brunei.
gosh i have all the free time in the world now :D time to get cracking on the spring(summer?) cleaning and reorganise everything -wardrobe, books, hutangs aaaand make up a new yoga routine. i need a more dynamic one. watever dynamic means. haha
the summer has come (for me)!
much love,
be'ah xxx
say sangat hyper. i just organised my room so all my revision notes are safely packed away. some are even in the recycling bin sudah haha atu konfaiden pass. insyaAllah imma rock the exams =D i'm planning to clean the house (specifically the kitchen) tomorrow and maybe do a little bit of shopping in the afternoon. or window shopping. we shall see. hehe. need to get ready for my mum's arrival!
oooh i cant wait. she's also bringing me my slippers from brunei. mcm nda dpt bali sja sini ah? its called saving moneh. anyhoo, i only wore the slippers for a couple of months since i wore heels most of the time in brunei.
gosh i have all the free time in the world now :D time to get cracking on the spring(summer?) cleaning and reorganise everything -wardrobe, books, hutangs aaaand make up a new yoga routine. i need a more dynamic one. watever dynamic means. haha
the summer has come (for me)!
much love,
be'ah xxx
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
A Couple More Days
until my jam-packed-with-activities-and-fun-filled SUMMER HOLIDAYS!
:D oh gosh i cant keep smiling to myself like orang gila. i kind of feel like i'm already on holiday,just because i enjoy reading and researching this last module, philosophy of law. but i dont knw how i'll do when i sit a 3hr paper for it considering i wont have my books with me. i like reading abt the module.. but i dont knw how i'll feel about retaining stuff in my brain and regurgitating it on paper. oh well, insyaAllah i'll do awesome (mau lagi awesome tu, bukan 'just fine' lol). Bismillahi Tawakkaltu 'Alallah.
anyhoo,i'm now about 2weeks ish from my goal weight! *shriek* another thing to be excited about. antah lately i've been feeling very hyper much. no, actually, these past couple of days have been a sort-of roller coaster ride on feelings but more on that later. but i'm excited because i just got off the scales 10minutes ago and i lost 200g!! haha. sekadar plg but i lost those 200g in 3days. is that good or bad? and i've been meaning to ask adib this question but we cant seem to clash on msn. so adib, if ur reading this -
what should my body fat percentage be for my toned muscles to start showing?
coz lately ive been doing a million sit ups and crunches. actually yes i exagerrated. but seriously, ferdie would be proud of me. there i am in the living room on my yoga mat, heaving and puffing red-faced and doing about 100 crunches. this i dont kid. actually, im bad with numbers. haha pokoknya i do 4 sets of different crunches, each 2x15reps. u do the math. but then again, wats the point of toning up if ive still got flab covering it?
but its all exciting to still be progressing. i just hope i dont do a u-turn in portugal. eh no, im more worried of a relapse (of binge eating) during my mum's visit! wat with her cooking nanti. well, im hoping she cooks. haha coz i tink she's expecting me to cook. we'll make a deal lah nanti. but on the topic of weight-loss, she has been supportive of me. she was the one who paid for my gym membership back during the summer and she wud wake me up to go jogging with her and dad to tasek. i love my mum. hmm.. maybe i can bring her jogging. hee we'll see.
the weather has gone back to being chilly now. im having mixed feelings. i had my first ever usrah on sunday! tres interesting i might say. so do i loathe the chillyness of spring/summer? no, i shudnt! hehe kan keluar tia hyperness ku. but i havent been jogging out anyway coz i have exams. and chilly weather makes me cover up so its easier to be a hijabi at this point. see? Allah tolong~ hehe. i've been feeling numb and all sorts since the usrah.. all teary and hugging housemates. mainly because of guilt and i dont really know where to start this huge change.. so i have ruzanna as my partner =) and remember, this aint pressure, its support. we have to believe in each other. yezzer. we can do this!
and thank you to everyone who has been mucho supportive as of late. be it my weight loss or my hijabi transformation (the the words of ezzah haha). anyhoo, i gotta get cracking on the yoga mat. toodles and assalamu'alaikum!
much love,
be'ah xxx
:D oh gosh i cant keep smiling to myself like orang gila. i kind of feel like i'm already on holiday,just because i enjoy reading and researching this last module, philosophy of law. but i dont knw how i'll do when i sit a 3hr paper for it considering i wont have my books with me. i like reading abt the module.. but i dont knw how i'll feel about retaining stuff in my brain and regurgitating it on paper. oh well, insyaAllah i'll do awesome (mau lagi awesome tu, bukan 'just fine' lol). Bismillahi Tawakkaltu 'Alallah.
anyhoo,i'm now about 2weeks ish from my goal weight! *shriek* another thing to be excited about. antah lately i've been feeling very hyper much. no, actually, these past couple of days have been a sort-of roller coaster ride on feelings but more on that later. but i'm excited because i just got off the scales 10minutes ago and i lost 200g!! haha. sekadar plg but i lost those 200g in 3days. is that good or bad? and i've been meaning to ask adib this question but we cant seem to clash on msn. so adib, if ur reading this -
what should my body fat percentage be for my toned muscles to start showing?
coz lately ive been doing a million sit ups and crunches. actually yes i exagerrated. but seriously, ferdie would be proud of me. there i am in the living room on my yoga mat, heaving and puffing red-faced and doing about 100 crunches. this i dont kid. actually, im bad with numbers. haha pokoknya i do 4 sets of different crunches, each 2x15reps. u do the math. but then again, wats the point of toning up if ive still got flab covering it?
but its all exciting to still be progressing. i just hope i dont do a u-turn in portugal. eh no, im more worried of a relapse (of binge eating) during my mum's visit! wat with her cooking nanti. well, im hoping she cooks. haha coz i tink she's expecting me to cook. we'll make a deal lah nanti. but on the topic of weight-loss, she has been supportive of me. she was the one who paid for my gym membership back during the summer and she wud wake me up to go jogging with her and dad to tasek. i love my mum. hmm.. maybe i can bring her jogging. hee we'll see.
the weather has gone back to being chilly now. im having mixed feelings. i had my first ever usrah on sunday! tres interesting i might say. so do i loathe the chillyness of spring/summer? no, i shudnt! hehe kan keluar tia hyperness ku. but i havent been jogging out anyway coz i have exams. and chilly weather makes me cover up so its easier to be a hijabi at this point. see? Allah tolong~ hehe. i've been feeling numb and all sorts since the usrah.. all teary and hugging housemates. mainly because of guilt and i dont really know where to start this huge change.. so i have ruzanna as my partner =) and remember, this aint pressure, its support. we have to believe in each other. yezzer. we can do this!
and thank you to everyone who has been mucho supportive as of late. be it my weight loss or my hijabi transformation (the the words of ezzah haha). anyhoo, i gotta get cracking on the yoga mat. toodles and assalamu'alaikum!
much love,
be'ah xxx
Monday, May 19, 2008
Friday, May 16, 2008
Weight Dilemma
what time of the day should we weigh ourselves? in the morning b4 brekkie or after lunch or before tdur? and how often in a week should we weight ourselves to get the most accurate weight?
i have been wondering about this for the past couple of days. the thing is, i have been losing weight but maybe im cheating myself. because i usually weigh myself in the morning, right after i wake up, brush my teeth and take a wee (so water weigh aint included lol).
anyhoo, i've signed up in foodfocus.co.uk, which is a great way to keep tabs on what u eat and and calorie intake and exercise and according to its magical calculations, at the rate i am exercising (which i put as light exercise. pasal aku malasss during exam times haha) i shud reach my goal on the 12th of june. EEK! THATS IN 3 WEEKS!
but like i said, i've been weighing myself early morning.. so maybe it'll take slightly longer. what with the portugal trip on the 11th, its definitely not gonna happen on the 12th of june. holidays abroad are when i let myself loose. sure i do my best to portion control, but hey, its only a once-in-a-lifetime trip so im not gonna deprive myself from some porto gelato or something. plus all the touristy walking there will probably burn off the extra calories. basically, my goal will be to maintain my weight saja. not lose. i'd be krazee to try and lose weight while abroad.
as of today, i am exactly one week away from my summer holidays. honestly i'm kind of looking forward to exams.. i dont knw if this means im ready. but i've been reading and reading and reading and i'm feeling more konfaiden and less lost on the topics. plus these last 2 papers are just essay questions, which i prefer over problem questions. problem questions already have a template way of answering so i cant really wriggle my way out by antam-ing. which is what i do best. lol.
so bring on the exams and let me be freeee!
much love,
be'ah xxx
i have been wondering about this for the past couple of days. the thing is, i have been losing weight but maybe im cheating myself. because i usually weigh myself in the morning, right after i wake up, brush my teeth and take a wee (so water weigh aint included lol).
anyhoo, i've signed up in foodfocus.co.uk, which is a great way to keep tabs on what u eat and and calorie intake and exercise and according to its magical calculations, at the rate i am exercising (which i put as light exercise. pasal aku malasss during exam times haha) i shud reach my goal on the 12th of june. EEK! THATS IN 3 WEEKS!
but like i said, i've been weighing myself early morning.. so maybe it'll take slightly longer. what with the portugal trip on the 11th, its definitely not gonna happen on the 12th of june. holidays abroad are when i let myself loose. sure i do my best to portion control, but hey, its only a once-in-a-lifetime trip so im not gonna deprive myself from some porto gelato or something. plus all the touristy walking there will probably burn off the extra calories. basically, my goal will be to maintain my weight saja. not lose. i'd be krazee to try and lose weight while abroad.
as of today, i am exactly one week away from my summer holidays. honestly i'm kind of looking forward to exams.. i dont knw if this means im ready. but i've been reading and reading and reading and i'm feeling more konfaiden and less lost on the topics. plus these last 2 papers are just essay questions, which i prefer over problem questions. problem questions already have a template way of answering so i cant really wriggle my way out by antam-ing. which is what i do best. lol.
so bring on the exams and let me be freeee!
much love,
be'ah xxx
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