"you know you've made it big when people you don't know hate you."

"inside some of us is a thin person struggling to get out, but they can usually be sedated with a few pieces of chocolate cake."
- Anonymous

"Weight management has to be an uncompromising, non-negotiable, everyday thing, like brushing your teeth"
Linda Spangle, 100 Days of Weight Loss

Thursday, November 6, 2008

change

change has cometh to ah-mey-ree-ka!

gobama! gobama! go! go! gobama!

heeeeeeeee.

anyhoo, i had a random thought today. i was sitting down, typing and all hunched when i had a sudden glance at my midriff. from the back of my head came the voice 'ugh annoying jua lamak anie eh. how many sit-ups do i need to do to get rid of it?!'

then i almost as random and sudden as the first thought, a second voice in me said

'helloooo? look who's talking. u used (still am) to be SO annoyed when ppl skinnier than u talk abt how berlemak and fat they are and you are now a size 6. remember, ur on the other side now'

'so? lamak is still lamak. its fat. plus im short. i need to lose the lamak!'

'get a grip girl. any smaller and u'd be anorexic.'

hmm.. never thought i'd actually (almost) describe myself as anorexic. of course im still FAAAAAAR from being one, but i think if i stick to this negativity abt fat, i will soon.

so0o0o0o....

the conclusion to this very random conversation between the 2 voices in my head is:

i'mma start loving my curves! i dont think its possible to have a washboard tummy with my diet and there is no wayy i'm changing that. i love food too much.

on the plus side, im starting to see toned arms again after the lapse of weight-training over ramadhan. hurray!

also another random note.........

i believe i have THE BEST, the most patient and most understandingest boyfriend EVER. actually, scratch that. i KNOW so.

jangan jeles~ =p

haha.

much love,
be'ah xoxo

p/s thanx again nav for cheering me up. amazing what a simple comment from a best friend can do. i love u!

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

u look fine. Know the saying - real women have curves.Celebra8 urs. Pretty sure most men prefer women who does not look skinny. Have a lil lamak is fine - in fact its great.

Nada lamak apa ada - tulang? all bones not nice eh.

Anorexics r not sexy!again, U look fine =)

just a friendly advice from a bloghopper

yanyan

Anonymous said...

if kaka anorexic i wont want to hug you :( cos i'll smash you into pieces!

yea man, love your curves. am over the phase of wanting to be skinny now hahahaha just be fit and healthy :) jgn lose weight lagi k? you look fabolous whatever shape n size! and okay okay, you look more fabulous now =p

rabi'a said...

yanyan: hee thanx. i know i should embrace them and im doing my best too. its just that my curves are in the wrong places! (or so i think.. lol)

imah: awu mah nda ku diet lgi. haha. banar plg sudah ku kurus anie nda siuk hug sama huda. haha.

Nav said...

ai i miss my hair...this curly hair is hard to maintain... :s