i am on fy-yah!

haha okay aku hyper. total change from the last post. sorry if that scared u. pokoknya everything is fine now and the wrinkles have been smoothed out. yes, i am a very silly silly girl and i keep trying to not do it but ntah.. its me. so i wont do any more promises but i will try to do my best to not do shit like that again. the highlight of it all? the magic words were spoken!

"u make me happy. feels right when im with u"

heart melt alert! haha. okay maybe i sound spoiled but i was feeling very vulnerable. young love! sigh.

i still promise on this tho, to talk whenever i have any doubt. thank u for still being here. ur the best, ever.

after the fiasco thing, i was reli buruk, had the whole big swollen eyes effect, unkempt hair (sudah tah rambut ikal, kusut lgi!) and blotchy skin. so to clean myself up, i did the only therapeutic thing i knw how to do that doesnt cost money.

i cleaned.

i cleaned my room from top to toe. vacuum the shit out of it, rearranged my stuff, wiped every surface with dettol, changes my sheets -everything. now my room's much brighter =D i also cleaned the toilet. i've been meaning to clean it since last week but i havent been pumped up for it. skali sudah c jem beckp 'we need to clean the house', i was like 'damn it i need to do the toilet!'. haha pasal its no fun when u do chores yang kana suruh. its much fun when u do it on ur own will. so yeah. or maybe thtas just me. but thanx jem coz u gave me the push i needed to clean the house. i also vacuumed the upstairs hallway and the stairs. i didnt do the stairs properly tho, psl 3 days ago i fell 5 steps down and it hurt like hell. i skinned a finger and my left hip is still sore. so theres no way i wanna fall down again with heavy henry (thats the vacuum cleaner, not some lover) on top of me.

despite the sore hip and bloody finger, i managed to play football tho. mind u, i was still in the middle of the previous post (see below) crisis so it didnt reli matter. kicking the ball around to release stress felt good. i pulled a muscle tho so i cudnt reli run properly. c wani tu punya psl, suruh tandang dari jauh. =p but even better, i had a one hour interim between football and dance practise, so we went over to wani's and her drums are ah-may-zing! and lurus jua i was stressed like hell, so banging on those drums were a huge stress buster. and i dont knw if its just me, but i believed i played some pretty good tunes. haha. altho in the middle of it reza insisted i wear the headphones rather than pakai amplifier. pfft.

and i still havent got the hang of ulek mayang in the last part of the dance. next wedsnesday we're suppose to show it to the organisers so i tink im just gonna wing it. psl thats the day of the next practise too. haha. oh well. i have a clean room now. and i need to do yoga bcoz all the football has taken over my yoga-ness. need to claim it back. huhu. lame eh.

pisluv (peace love)

be'ah xxx