the silly hoopla

theres one line in harry potter, one of the books, i dont remember which, that i reli like. i dont remember its exact words tho. but it goes sumthing like

misunderstanding breeds mistrust, which in turns breeds contempt..'

u get the drift?

it all starts from being silly, from being misunderstood, from reading too much into things that u start making up stuff and jumping to conclusions. and then u start distrusting. for a girl like me, it doesnt take too long. the whole process just fast-forwards itself.

but i also calm down fast. im stubborn, yes -but i have a guilty conscience that makes me slow down and think abt wat ive said, wat ive done, and the conclusion is usually very much against me.

now i tink i've damaged it too much to fix it. and the sad thing is, theres no way out. all i can do is wait.

i am so so sorry. for being selfish. for being ungrateful. for being someone so undeserving of u.

i hope u find it in your heart to forgive me. because if i were u, it would take everything in my power to even try.

*LSKOL*